[Alchemist90]

First I apologized for my bad english, it's not my mother’s language. i am still learning and slowly make progress.

Some of the symptoms are:

poor posture
clumsy movements
poor handwriting
poor understanding of the needed motion for example at gym class
Poor coordination of movement
The hardest thing is doing multitasking
Poor orientation in space
Bad assessment Of space

Hypersensitivity to loud or unexpectedly noises
Hypersensitivity to the unexpectedly brightness
Inability to separate thinking about everything that I hear or see
For the smell I did not notice
Very unpleasant feeling for some textures as non-ferrous metals, polystyrene

Inability to concentrate in the crowd or in team work, the easier it is talking 1 to 1, or work alone
The inability to establish friendly relations or maintaining them, I have one friend, I see him sometime, he have mental problems
Not close enough to have a girl, even not to the stage to start a conversation
Since forever feel like I'm weird, different
The face expression is almost always smile
For me is hard to recognise my emotions, I never think about that, mabye start think in twenty
I just didn’t think do I recognize other people's feelings
now I recognize a joke, before it was harder



I always fantasize that I have a strong friendship, imagine a situation where help each others and strongly linked for friends, also imagine romantic relationships with the girls.
I have rigid beliefs in many ways, so I about sex, fall in love with girls and who physically attracted to me but I usualy do not think about sex, for sex watch porn sites and masturbate.



I do not like nothing unplanned.
OCD was start mabye from my 5 years of life and mabye even before, it is very strong and it is in everything and everytime, this is certainly my diagnosis, I evolved in every possible sphere.

They talked to me that when I was child my speak was as in adult man
But since the beginning of the school I began to imitate some of my school friend, it was and in the spech.

For me was Difficult to accustom on school, I was fried, always tried to avoid this, I was need about two years to accustom.

I was Opinions about philosophical things.

Fixture certain things, for example mechanisms and so for hours, now I can this and about some peoples.
Bad accent, speaking is a little unreasonable, uncertain trips sometimes unexpected sounds.

In adolescence, I was treatment for my speech.



I think I was from seven and especially from eleventh years old I am chronically sad, thoughts to the suffering in a kind of hell, as opposed of that is melancholy behavior as I am drunk and crazy

I do not know if I'm emotional, do I tie for someone.

I am calm, shy, invisible, but now think I want to hang out.
From the child I wanted to get closer to the animals to they accept me.
In the association, I did not shutrd down only if I am sure if there is reason that they respect me.

Something that is not characteristic of Asperger's, I'm not musical, I do not have the gift of a sense of colors, smells, visualization might not be the very well, about problem in terms with the eyes can not remember or it is like less, I am too quiet, calm.



I have hand movements typical of nervousness.
I have my own Independent, unique thinking.
I an often honest.
My voice often have anunusual volume, rhythm.
I sleep poorly.
I have Difficulty to reading aloud.
I can not tolerate criticism and authorities.



Concentrating only on what interests me, the rest is very difficult, now it is difficult to anything.
I have ideas and that take me a monthly basis, but some shange or evolving, some returning.
I remember the details when I'm interested.
Me Interested persons who are different or who suffer in life.
I did as a child philosophize, a world without suffering and death, but somehow I was like a dumb, from my 19 year age , that starts and lucid dreams but I don’t have now, I've changed, I felt my own problems, somehow felt better world and the people, something that is certainly good and mabye relation to all this is that I almost vegan from nearly.



I always was interesting in Mysteries, ufo.

Have about two strange unexplain dreans and something like hallucinations for a second.
Some weird imagination of 3d numbers who from thin became fat and that was unpleasantly but this period was passed quickly.



There was Quarrels and fights during my mother was in pregnancy and when I growing up, she felt bad during pregnancy. Father have middle OCD and from child, he is introvert, now he talks to himself when is he alone, he has a depressive phase, a little weird, my mother had a depressive phase, hers coordination is bad, she has not unrealistic reasons to disruption hers friendships, grandmother have some of similar characteristics to us.



I tried to be a good schoolboy, more precisely I fit to father's help and fore for that, I tried just that no one has ever reason to admonished me for something, or even noticed me. Violence from other school childrens I was hiding all the time.My family was tense and poor, also it is question the expertise and interest of psychologists and teacher in my small countryside and also in underdeveloped country, I never send to the psychologists and I don’t know that anyone was sent anytime from my class.



In tests for Aspie I get a high score. Reading the symptoms I recognize in them. I'm 26 years old and I did not achieve anything special in my life. For a short time I visited the treatment I received diagnosis of Avoidant personality disorder with high OCD in it and suggestion to Bipolar disorder unspecified. For My status to 19 year of life I would said that is like as Schizoid personality disorder as it was AvPD.

What do you thinks, Thanks.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Alchemist90: I'm sorry but we here on PC cannot diagnose you. I could not say if you might have Asperger's Syndrome. This requires a mental health professional. Perhaps other members, here on PC, may feel able to offer their thoughts.

I noted your comment regarding violence from other school children & hiding all the time. This is so sad. I had this experience many years ago as well. Even now, at my advanced age, I'm certain it still affects me.

I don't know what possibilities there are for you to obtain mental health treatment now or in the future where you live. From what you wrote it sounds like those opportunities may be few. Hopefully being here on PC can be of some comfort & support. Please keep posting.

[Alchemist90]

26 years... now don't known what I get with these... for social skill they do seem as AvPD, for OCD among other need drugs, mabye found source for frustating coordination and reaction on suprise....