[WePow]

So I was with that company almost 17 yrs and they said they were going to move my desk into a smaller space just onedesk away from where I was and closer to the break room. I have severe noise hypersensitivity they knew about. I had found a spot in that new building perfect for me and the HR person told me "We have made ENOUGH ACCOMMODATIONS for you already!". It was a very bad day with two other HR issues that AM on other things and then the boss sprang that on me. I dissociated after my meltdown at lunch and ended up two hours later with my hair cut off in the restroom and HR found me. They called me at home that night to tell me they fired me. I am applying for my SSDI for the PTSD, Dissociative Identity Disorder, and Autism. I have spent YEARS fighting to be a part of this word and contribute to society only to have a company that I personally helped keep alive and grow turn on me.

That all happened three months ago, but I can't even say the name of that place. I threw in the trash bags of company shirts I had collected over my years and years there.

I am posting now for support because I need to heal. I can't even look on line for a job at all due to the extreme betrayal I feel. I have attachment disorder anyway and do not trust others. This just took my distrust of humans to a scary level.

I am so sorry that this happened to you, WePow ...

It ain't right!

[WePow]

Originally Posted by Pflower

I am so sorry that this happened to you, WePow ...

It ain't right!

Thank you. At least I did not quit. And there was no way for me to stop or control what happened. It made me very disappointed with myself. But my therapist asked me if I would blame a disabled person for the same situation. Of course not! "So don't blame that person." he replied. It hit me. It all finally made sense. I was discriminating against myself. So now I have to advocate. It is so hard to do that. But I am trying.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by WePow

I have spent YEARS fighting to be a part of this word and contribute to society only to have a company that I personally helped keep alive and grow turn on me.

Seventeen years is a LONG time! Great respect to you, WePow.

[WePow]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Seventeen years is a LONG time! Great respect to you, WePow.

thank you tons

[unaluna]

(((WePow))) I'm so sorry. Its not right, how many people got their promotions based on OUR hard work? They use us up then spit us out.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((( WePow ))))))
People who use us and spit us out
It stinks that this happened...... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

[seesaw]

So sorry, wepow.

[MatBell]

[pppp3]

I don't know if this will help, but I learned a really long time ago (20's-30's) that because we spend so much time at work, we often get a false sense that both the people we work with and the company
have a vested interest and concern for our well-being,
but truth/reality is they simply don't.

Not trusting an employer, I think is a really healthy thing - Took me a lot of grief (bad companies or bad policies) to reach that conclusion.

Sure some companies seem nicer than others, but for all their decisions are always what's in THEIR best interests, not ever yours.
(Just reality and the hard truth).

HR person sounds like a real b--tch - And I wonder if she planned (instigated) intentionally, doing something she knew would disrupt you or make you feel miserable?
(Not nice and actually cruel).

It really sucks being under the control and whims of others, which is one of the many reasons I started my own business 15+ years ago - (I'm 54)
If I get fired or laid off, I'll be the first to know.

Might be something for you to think about, many types of jobs these days you can work form home, and then you have complete control over your environment, and schedule, breaks, lighting, noise level, etc.

You sound like a dedicated, hard worker.

I hope this turns into a good opportunity for you ---Sometimes it takes an unexpected bad event to bring us closer to where we really need to be - -
Even if that might mean taking a break from working for awhile (unemployment benefits and/or short term disability).

Good Luck and I'm sorry you had to go through that terrible situation.

[WePow]

Originally Posted by pppp3

I don't know if this will help,
Good Luck and I'm sorry you had to go through that terrible situation.

Thank you! This helped a ton!!! I am teaching myself how to code apps. I have a few ideas on some I want that are not out there yet. So I will make them and offer them for sale 😃

it's true that I do feel very relieved to be free now. I did this art today as my hypersensitive to sound hit me hard. My therapist has me draw my feelings.

Having ASD can really suck sometimes. But I am learning to cherish my gifts that come with it.

[pppp3]

Originally Posted by WePow

Thank you! This helped a ton!!! I am teaching myself how to code apps. I have a few ideas on some I want that are not out there yet. So I will make them and offer them for sale 😃

it's true that I do feel very relieved to be free now. I did this art today as my hypersensitive to sound hit me hard. My therapist has me draw my feelings.

Having ASD can really suck sometimes. But I am learning to cherish my gifts that come with it.

Wow, I'm so impressed by your resiliency and talent.
I wish you much success with your ideas on how to make money in future;

17 years is a really long time to stick it out with any employer,
so don't forget to take time to "breathe" to adjust to the changes in your daily routine.
I'm hoping their loss will be your gain ten-fold -
It's never easy changing paths in life (2 steps forward and one step back), but sounds like your positive attitude will give you the strength you need to succeed.
And if your new life gets scary, remember we're all rooting for you, and hoping your new freedom opens up all kinds of great opportunities.

[CobolCapsule]

Don't feel bad you will find another job. I have been fired dozens of times for saying the wrong thing to the boss, or just not getting along with coworkers. Its a pattern i just can't shake, so i do contract work for a bank, where i don't have to report to anybody, and basically work for myself.

[Lost_in_the_woods]

As fellow ptsd and did sufferers we think it is amazing that you were able to achieve 17 yrs of any kind of stability! We have never been able to be consistent and stable at anything for very long..especially not working with/ around a lot of people! Think longest employment out in the world was 2 or 3 years..and that was only part time! You are so extremely strong and smart! We wish we had even a tenth of your ability! - Lost♡

[WePow]

Originally Posted by CobolCapsule

Don't feel bad you will find another job. I have been fired dozens of times for saying the wrong thing to the boss, or just not getting along with coworkers. Its a pattern i just can't shake, so i do contract work for a bank, where i don't have to report to anybody, and basically work for myself.

Thank you for the reply. But no... i will never EVER work for anyone again. It was too much and I am still not ok. I will exit stage left if that is the only option left. I can't even think about a job without SU thought being right there. There are just too many moving parts in my head. My only hope is to learn stuff I can do on my own. Thankfully I do like coding. I want to write apps.

I am very glad I am 46. It means most of this life should be over for me anyway. It is very bad when I can't remember a day in my entire life ... including childhood... when I was not wishing for it to end so all the pain would stop. That is how severe the abuse was. And because of the autism i believed what the older boys said when threatened. And teachers never believed me.

Anyway, I want to be able to have that one day where I am happy to be alive. Is that too much to ask?

[snarkydaddy]

Originally Posted by WePow

So I was with that company almost 17 yrs and they said they were going to move my desk into a smaller space just onedesk away from where I was and closer to the break room. I have severe noise hypersensitivity they knew about. I had found a spot in that new building perfect for me and the HR person told me "We have made ENOUGH ACCOMMODATIONS for you already!". It was a very bad day with two other HR issues that AM on other things and then the boss sprang that on me. I dissociated after my meltdown at lunch and ended up two hours later with my hair cut off in the restroom and HR found me. They called me at home that night to tell me they fired me. I am applying for my SSDI for the PTSD, Dissociative Identity Disorder, and Autism. I have spent YEARS fighting to be a part of this word and contribute to society only to have a company that I personally helped keep alive and grow turn on me.

That all happened three months ago, but I can't even say the name of that place. I threw in the trash bags of company shirts I had collected over my years and years there.

I am posting now for support because I need to heal. I can't even look on line for a job at all due to the extreme betrayal I feel. I have attachment disorder anyway and do not trust others. This just took my distrust of humans to a scary level.

I am very sad to hear about your experience... i can relate on many lvls. recently I was given a dx of H.F.A. I have had so many work place issues with sound & and visual input. It was a real overload. I thought everyone was like this. Take the time to can to heal from this. I believe in the end it will work out for you.

[Misssy2]

Originally Posted by WePow

So I was with that company almost 17 yrs and they said they were going to move my desk into a smaller space just onedesk away from where I was and closer to the break room. I have severe noise hypersensitivity they knew about. I had found a spot in that new building perfect for me and the HR person told me "We have made ENOUGH ACCOMMODATIONS for you already!". It was a very bad day with two other HR issues that AM on other things and then the boss sprang that on me. I dissociated after my meltdown at lunch and ended up two hours later with my hair cut off in the restroom and HR found me. They called me at home that night to tell me they fired me. I am applying for my SSDI for the PTSD, Dissociative Identity Disorder, and Autism. I have spent YEARS fighting to be a part of this word and contribute to society only to have a company that I personally helped keep alive and grow turn on me.

That all happened three months ago, but I can't even say the name of that place. I threw in the trash bags of company shirts I had collected over my years and years there.

I am posting now for support because I need to heal. I can't even look on line for a job at all due to the extreme betrayal I feel. I have attachment disorder anyway and do not trust others. This just took my distrust of humans to a scary level.

I didn't get fired...but I did QUIT before that happened because I saw it coming...and I got lucky in my situation as far as finances because they gave me a severence package.

BUT...I feel the same exact way you do...I couldn't look for a job....because I was also betrayed...I can't look at anything from that co. without crying. I worked there 19 years...and I get really pissed when they send me updates on anything to do with stocks or anything else. I sream "Leave me Alone".

I did apply for SSDI and it took 2.5 long years to win.
Its also a very challenging task...I feel your pain.

[BadWolfC]

So sorry that this happened to you... I've always had a hard time keeping jobs, and it sounds like it's their loss if you were able to be there for such a long time. Best of luck with the SSDI

[miss_rainy]

I like what you said pppp3. This is very true and helpful. I thought it was against the law to discriminate and deny you because of a disability? After that many years, you would think they would cut you a break. Really they sound like cold, insensitive people. They don't deserve you anyway and they'll miss you.