Depression

I don't know how to get out of it. I don't find the motivation.
My psychiatrist told me that I already take a high dosage enough of antidepressants and he says that I have to put on my part.
My therapist says I have to work very hard on my self-esteem bc I can't depend on others views. Whn I feel rejected it's like a hell for me and I can't depend on it. It's having harder that I could figure out bc I can't think of a single thing I like in myself. There is always a but. How can I find something good in a person who was always a coward, weak, childish...I stop it here.
To complete all, I'm not having any support, but this is another story. I even preffer it like this. It's time for me to do things on my own.
How to cope with this? Can you give me a clue, an insight?

You will find your way.
You are much stronger now.

Jade

I wish I knew, I feel the same way :/

I guess it's not going to help either if I tell you you are NOT a coward, weak or childish

I know it. Nearly all my friends from the boards are depressed as well.
I hope it hasn't have to do anything with being my friends.