Familiar

I asked myself if I stopped thinking people dislike me, than what?
And that thought caused fear. Like walking down stairs with no hand rail.
The familiarity of believing yourself unlikeable is so rooted I can't imagine being without it. That's the only way I believe I can read People.
But the reality is.... We cannot read people like we r think with such accuracy. It's that which keeps the fantasy going.
Uncertainty v certainly, even if the certainty isn't real.

You have just perfectly described how I feel. And that's something I'm really struggling with right now.

And there's no quick fix

Break do you go for any therapy?
I'm thinking of making an appt. today......hope I don't chicken out.

Let's walk that "beach" together in spirit.

Is there any fix at all? Don't care how slow it is....



Yes, I am in therapy, but at the moment I don't feel like it is helping me much. The belief that this is just who I am is so strong. I don't know who I would even be without this AvPD.....

Did you make the appointment?

yes I have to wait until Nov. 30. I am ambivalent about it. I hope I'll be relieved and she will be kind and can help me.
Usually things work out pretty well when I get an idea.

I'm glad I saw her picture so I can know what to expect a little.
I hope she doesn't talk too much.