[mulan]

I feel so ashamed! I want people to understand me, to be kind to me and to support me, but as I start to write I want to give up.

Work and avoidant personality disorder are just too hard. I am not sure I can do it. People notice I am odd and then there's no escape. And I imagine only bad opinions/harsh opinions on me for the future. Yes because I have avoided responsabilities, I don't know how to deal with them.
I will be thought as the lazy one and everyone will hate me.

And if not as the lazy one at least as the arrogant one who doesn't speak and choses to be alone. I can't deal with both feelings.

[Ylba]

Sorry you're going through that. Are you seeing a therapist?

Originally Posted by mulan

I feel so ashamed! I want people to understand me, to be kind to me and to support me, but as I start to write I want to give up.

Work and avoidant personality disorder are just too hard. I am not sure I can do it. People notice I am odd and then there's no escape. And I imagine only bad opinions/harsh opinions on me for the future. Yes because I have avoided responsabilities, I don't know how to deal with them.
I will be thought as the lazy one and everyone will hate me.

And if not as the lazy one at least as the arrogant one who doesn't speak and choses to be alone. I can't deal with both feelings.

[realizer]

Have you tried disability benefits option?

[Ylba]

Look into cognitive behavioral therapy. It can help you challenge some of that negative thinking.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( Mulan ))))))))

I suppose that some people who enjoy judging others may judge/label you and many others as odd.. I wonder why they don’t look inside themselves instead. Nobody is perfect, especially those morons who enjoy putting others down ..