For once, I'm proud.

Things in my life have been kind of stressful this past fall. My job started to fail, because of a situation with my boss and my mental illness, so my boss kept trying to get me to quit by giving me no hours. I was failing psychology, my FAVORITE class and major, all because the professor is not good at teaching and doesn't make good exams. The highest grade on the last test was a C! That's saying a lot.

I got really depressed and I didn't think I could make it out of it. I felt like everything was really hopeless and I always feel like this. But college has really done wonders for me.

About two weeks ago, things started to slowly look up for me. I found courage and confidence, something I NEVER have, and talked to a cute boy in one of my classes. He was really nice and we talked for awhile. I also asked him to help me study for something. Even though he turned out to have a criminal record (Google is a wonderful tool), I still feel happy that I did that.

But now? I finally got another job, working with the elderly. I'm excited and nervous, but I feel successful for once and I feel like things are starting to get back on track.

I still have trouble with Psychology, but I don't think that's going to change. I will just have to take my final exam next week and study all I can. That's all I can do!

But I'm starting to feel like an actual grown up and like I'm maturing and that I actually have purpose in the world and I'm very happy that I'm feeling this happy.

And thank you everyone who has helped me out in the past, I greatly appreciate it! H

wow .... nice ... its harder to find meaning to life ... the answer to the question "why?"

keep it up dear ... my first depression was when i was 17 ... i got over it ... never thought it will return ... was insanely successful for next 7 years ... you know because of hypo-mania .... but then again came the lows ... when i was 24 .. so watch for signs too ..

I'm glad things are looking up for you. Don't worry about psych too much. If you really want something, you'll make it happen. GPA won't matter. Kay Jamison (very famous bipolar psychologist) admitted in her memoir, An Unquiet Mind, that she failed and dropped out of many classes due to her mood disorder. And she went on to not only get a PhD, but she became one of the leading experts on bipolar disorder!

My research mentor has a PhD in anatomy. His first semester GPA was under a 1.0! He failed nearly all of his classes, but he didn't give up. He's one of the smartest people I know, but because he has known adversity, he is also one of the most compassionate.

I even met a man at a dinner party who claimed to have failed intro computer science 4 times, finally passing with a D. What does he do for a living? Computer science.

Very happy for you H

Im very happy for you. I love stories like this where a person finally is finding the meaning and success they have been looking for. Congrats on everything thats great.

Secretum, thank you! That makes me feel a lot better! I ended up getting a D on the exam and an A on the essays, so I passed the class with a C. I was very happy.

And thank you to everyone else.

that's great you got the job

good luck..

Well done. Wishing you continued success .