[ihatemybrain]

I wanted to introduce myself before I tell about my crisis/life situations. I was on suicide forum, but had to stop there as it was too depressing. I hope to learn as well as give feedback to others.

Careful long read; I tried to simplify as best I can!

I was Dx w/ bipolar in 1995, I took only lithium. In 1998 I married & he thought the lithium was making me more angry. I trusted him and tapered off. In reality, my husband knew little about bipolar. Now, I am on lithium Licitamal, Abilify, Cybalta that help me be more focused, strong. I have been stable for 3 years.

I lost my Dad, my son, my husband in 1 month, pls don't think I made this up. My father died unexpectedly while overseas; 3 days later I had an accident with my son (dropping him). Husband says I 'threw him". I really don't remember! Son had a mild concussion. Hospital reports state no further injury. My husband & I were the only ones there. {I felt: grief, post-partum, unmedicated bipolar]
Due to the fact that my husband allowed his sister to take our son to the hospital. CPS wrote my husbands relationship to me was co-dependent.
NOW, he lies & accuses me of trying to kill our son!!
My husband divorced me while I was in the hospital, after I brokedown I was in 3 hospitals for 5 months. He was awarded sole custody.
I do not have money for a lawyer THEN OR NOW. I have filed modification papers by legal aid help. I am waiting to get a letter from the court. I have not seen my son in almost 4 yrs. IT"S NOT FAIR!!
I don't want to do anything to my son; I just want to see him. I was in a bipolar state and could not defend myself in 2005.

I have gone to legal aid, they cannot help every case. I know I need a lawyer. I can't find one that will work for free. I don't work so I have no income to get a loan. I live on disability. I used to be a teacher. Now, I substitute. I aim to get full-time employment, but fear lose all my benefits now.

Here I am, just needing to vent and get some feedback, support. (If this is too much for you to respond to, I understand!)

AM I CRAZY??? Do I have a chance?

I know Judges may not understand mental health issues. Should I give up and resign myself to not see my son until he is 12? Or risk making it worse in court. What kind of questions, that the judge will want to know. This is a county court in rural east Texas.

[yippie]

please take it easy ! Jues trust yourself!
If you are crazy, how could you post such a logical article to search for help?
So just go on and fighting for yourself and your son.
Everyday is a new day for you ,for everyone of us.
If you has the brave to suicide, why don's have the brave to face a new and sunshine day?

I'm just a stranger for you. But I care about you and other people like you.
So I register my account and post my views.

Where there is sunshine, there has love.
I pray for you.

Originally Posted by ihatemybrain

I wanted to introduce myself before I tell about my crisis/life situations. I was on suicide forum, but had to stop there as it was too depressing. I hope to learn as well as give feedback to others.

Careful long read; I tried to simplify as best I can!

I was Dx w/ bipolar in 1995, I took only lithium. In 1998 I married & he thought the lithium was making me more angry. I trusted him and tapered off. In reality, my husband knew little about bipolar. Now, I am on lithium Licitamal, Abilify, Cybalta that help me be more focused, strong. I have been stable for 3 years.

I lost my Dad, my son, my husband in 1 month, pls don't think I made this up. My father died unexpectedly while overseas; 3 days later I had an accident with my son (dropping him). Husband says I 'threw him". I really don't remember! Son had a mild concussion. Hospital reports state no further injury. My husband & I were the only ones there. {I felt: grief, post-partum, unmedicated bipolar]
Due to the fact that my husband allowed his sister to take our son to the hospital. CPS wrote my husbands relationship to me was co-dependent.
NOW, he lies & accuses me of trying to kill our son!!
My husband divorced me while I was in the hospital, after I brokedown I was in 3 hospitals for 5 months. He was awarded sole custody.
I do not have money for a lawyer THEN OR NOW. I have filed modification papers by legal aid help. I am waiting to get a letter from the court. I have not seen my son in almost 4 yrs. IT"S NOT FAIR!!
I don't want to do anything to my son; I just want to see him. I was in a bipolar state and could not defend myself in 2005.

I have gone to legal aid, they cannot help every case. I know I need a lawyer. I can't find one that will work for free. I don't work so I have no income to get a loan. I live on disability. I used to be a teacher. Now, I substitute. I aim to get full-time employment, but fear lose all my benefits now.

Here I am, just needing to vent and get some feedback, support. (If this is too much for you to respond to, I understand!)

AM I CRAZY??? Do I have a chance?

I know Judges may not understand mental health issues. Should I give up and resign myself to not see my son until he is 12? Or risk making it worse in court. What kind of questions, that the judge will want to know. This is a county court in rural east Texas.