My B/F is bipolar

My B/f and I have been together for almost 2 yrs now. He is an alcoholic, bipolar, manic, ocd, ptsd, and this has been a really bad rollercoaster ride. He chooses not to stay on his meds, is always telling me to leave and then changes his mind, and this has taken an emotional and mental toll on me, and I do not know what to do. I need help and I am scared that he is serious this time about me leaving him. I have stood by him through alot of rough times in his life, and really love and care about him. Please I really need help & answers, if possible. I'm confused and scared about losing him.

It sounds like he is quite a handful. I know how had it can be when someone you care about has a mental illness. The best that I can tell you is that during episodes distortions in thinking are very prevalent. You can't help someone who won't help themselves. I don't know the whole situation obviously but maybe he is not in a place to have a serious relationship. I'm not saying break up but maybe distance yourself a little bit and then when is ready and healthy enough, continue the relationship. Your own health is the priority. I know thats hard to conceptualize (it is for me anyways) but its the most important thing to think about. Its not being selfish its being realistic. You can't fix him but you can express your feelings and hope he'll get the help he needs.

Be strong and good luck.

I know you care about the dude, but not only is he mentally ill and refusing meds (which is his right, but perhaps not pleasant to be around), but he's a drunk too. Love isn't going to fix him and you're better off protecting yourself from his nuttery than giving yourself a ridiculous amount of stress and abuse trying to "fix" his stupidity (and obviously there is an element of that...). Leave him and find someone healthy to be with. It's not as if "soul mates" exist and you'll never love anyone like you love him again, you will and it'll be easier.

my bf has a myriad of disorders as well. instead of drink its smoke, though. I understand where you're coming from. You have to know that you are his gf, not his mother or his doctor. If he's pushing you away now, you do what you can, and if that's not enough, you won't regret leaving. If you feel like you haven't done all you can and both him AND you can benefit from your relationship...then make it work. tell him how you feel. don't let him get angry with you. What you feel is as important as how he feels.