What is this now

I have always enjoyed my solitude. Now I need people around yet I feel uncomfortable around them.I will shut up now because I don't know what is going on now

i believe you may have some trust issues, hmmm?

You mean that you need people's help due to your bipolar disorder and before you preferred to be alone? I still prefer my solitude also. Luckily I have a mate who understands when I don't want to talk and would rather read or sleep. He too is a hermit most of the time so it's all good.

Having people around can be draining. I've always been recharged by doing things by myself. Social situations and interacting with people I'm not super close to feels like an exercise in futility.

If you've just been through a major crisis or recently got diagnosed, you can comfort yourself in knowing that it won't always be like this (with lots of people). Once your meds get sorted out, you can go back to your normal routine and just see your therapist or whatever you're comfortable with.

Hope you feel better soon.

Thank you Futz's and Thinker for responding. Yes I do have trust issues.
I stay to myself except for T and P apts. I joined a bipolar support group that meets every other Monday nite. I feel out of place there too. Other than that I am in the house. I live online. I don't do to well in the 3D world. I am not sure how I am suppose to feel around people. All my life I was a loner.

Being a loner isn't necessarily a bad thing. Some of the most gifted artists, writers, thinkers, scientists, pioneers, etc. liked to be alone more often than not. We do see the world differently and it's okay to feel lost in a world that doesn't get you. I love the Internet for the very reason that you can interact with billions of people with millions of interests. Out of that kind of pool, you're bound to find the people similar to yourself which you might not meet on the street in your town or anywhere you happen to be. It's not intimidating and you can always disappear anonymously if people are mean, which is tougher in real life.

I'm not saying we don't need friends we see in real life now and again, but if you're focusing on getting better, your docs and support groups are really all you got to worry about. That's where I am. And yeah, I have trust issues too. Don't most people with intense emotions have them? If we didn't feel so much, were dumber or more calloused, then maybe people and memories from the past wouldn't be so painful.

You're welcome here always. I call myself a misfit's misfit. Which is of course why I became an artist. Huzzah!