Hypomania or mania?

Okay guys, I got a little lost there with the antipsychotics discussion. So, I got 7.5 hours last night and I still feel good, like the hypomania is present. Guess my body caught up. Not sure what I'm going to do today.

80s roller rink party anyone?

That is so wierd. I had a dream last night that i was roller skating.

But,sorry, count me out--i am way too depressed to go to a party or skate.

Eh, I don't feel like skating either. A wave of sleepiness overcame me after sitting and thinking. I hope it's not going to turn into sadness because the weather is perfect to do something outdoors. Wish I could shake this drowsiness though.

What about a fondue party?

Make it a chocolate fondue party and I may just come.

Yay! A virtual choc fondue party. I'm bringin' espresso bean dark and stromberries.

I'll bring an assortment of berries. And some bananas.

Well the fun's over for me I guess. I came down this past weekend. Still having a bit of trouble sleeping and I have been working a lot of late hours. I have enough energy to get my stuff done, but not much more. I'm thankful though that I seem to have avoided crashing into depression so far. Looks like I could be in normalville for awhile. Less entertaining but I welcome it anyday!

How bout the rest of you hoppy toads?

Well, I've been on an upswing since Sunday night's terrible dip. Today I've been higher than ever. As I've said elsewhere, it feels like I'm jumping out of my skin. Bouncing around, laughing, making jokes, traipsing about the apartment, hyperactive, can't sit still, and accomplished a ton of things today, not the least of which was an entire meal from making my famous marinara sauce, fresh spaghetti boiled just right, garlic bread, an Italian salad (lettuce, tomato, olives, red onion, feta and mozzarella cheese, cucumber) and a dressing from scratch. I haven't felt like cooking like that in almost 2 years. I used to cook every night and had fun doing it, like tonight. My appetite has also increased. I didn't feel stuffed after half a plate of food. Yay! Still have room for dessert, which incidentally, I'm uploading a pic of soon...no I didn't make it...they're just the cupcakes I keep on referring to. I talked to a couple of resources in this county and apparently the only way to get my meds changed if I go completely off the deep end is to be an inpatient at the hospital. There is no middle ground if you're in the wastelands between psychiatrists.

Said cupcake link:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/pictu...pictureid=4610

What kinda nurse can't tell the difference between the smell of isopropyl alcohol and alcohol meant for consumption? I hate it when I get a medical "professional" who doesn't know jack. And I've been living with this stuff and reading and learning longer than some of these people have been alive. Makes me angry when I obviously know more about my diagnosis than they do. Fortunately, those are few and far between but it does happen.

I hope you can get something positive done for yourself.

Yeah, even my therapist thinks the p-nurse was ridiculous and apologized for mentioning her as a possibility for looking over my meds.

I'm still bouncy and energetic today. I want to exercise. I haven't done that since fall of '07.

Is that a new manic berry.....stomberry?

I feel FABULOUS TOO! <3 Maybe I'll send you love letters meant for this guy I'm oogling who lives FAR to FAR from me. how's over 3k miles? I made that number up. I've been up at 4 for weeks now.

Vickie...stromberries are like snausberries...we are the makers of candy, we are the dreamers of dreams. I love Gene Wilder. He's my fave. And hey, why not have a manicberry. They could be like everlasting gobstoppers (my cat needs one of those...she's so NEEEEDY!).

Hey ama, I hope you told your p-doc about being high and waking up so early. Sleep is a must even if we don't feel like we need it. 14 days with 3-6 hours a night of broken sleep sucks! My mind doesn't give a crap, but my body and eyes do.

I'm trying to get my meds changed, but I don't want to go to the hospital. Barely hanging in here.

Wait Ama, who's this guy? Someone you met online? Don't make any rash decisions just because you feel awesome. If I started looking at airfares to Europe, I'd seriously book a ticket and leave without any plans. That's just my weakness, so I don't friggin' look at air fares and avoid travel sites altogether. Ironic that I work for a travel site. :P

Anywhose, I've also traveled across the Atlantic to meet a guy I'd never seen before in London...yeah, hypersexual time...and then I left him to go to Rome. Craziness. And this was on a spring break. I'm whack, what can I say. I also have a thing for certain accents.

All I can say is I LOVE hypo mania, but went through 5 mos. of it & didn't realize it was so dangerous (sleeping 2-3 nights a week, but didn't feel tired & actually felt wonderful which is strange for me as I normally am depressed w.no self-esteem).

But I had been stable for about 5 yrs. so I wasn't seeing my nurse practitioner that frequently (maybe every 9 mos.) & just enjoyed the hypo mania until my husband made a negative remark to me & I suddenly crashed into a horrible hell--overdosed on my meds & ended up in the ER. Then spent 2 yrs. in mixed episodes--trying to change my meds & get back into therapy...

It was awful.

Love hypo mania, but meds provider says if I go 3 nights without at least 6 hrs. of sleep I need to call her & get on major duty sedating meds as when I don't sleep I don't think properly (obviously).

Spent about 2 yrs. in mixed episode after overdose. AWFUL. Finally getting stable. Therapy & DBT helping. Now able to decrease my meds.

I started to feel overwhelmed about an hour ago and was very tempted to call the hospital again because I was afraid the crash was starting (still not sure if it might be), but I really don't want to stay there overnight. So I've averaged 4.5 hours of sleep for 14 nights. I got an extra hour long nap on one day and became depressed afterward. Now I'm afraid of naps. But I tried to rest just a while ago instead of calling the hospital. So I set my alarm for 15 mins and I hadn't fallen asleep, but got some rest. I set it for 10 more mins and again rested and had images going through my mind like dreams, but not sleep because I'm afraid of it and the nightmares and depression.

I feel a bit better, but I REALLY need a full night of sleep tonight. Called the MD (who was out but her office contacted her) and she said I could try the other sleep aid tonight. I hope it works. It's called Amitryptaline, I think. It's a very low dose, so I hope it works. The low dose of Temazepam didn't work for me the past 3 nights.

Help me guys. If I don't get sleep tonight, don't let me keep going on and on like this until I reach a point of no return. I'm really starting to get scared.

Hey Thinker22 - How are you doing? Had any decent sleep yet?

Hi ellyb. It's only 10:15pm here on Friday. Haven't gone to sleep yet no, but haven't tried yet. I'll take my sleep aid after I brush my teeth.

I'll check in tomorrow morning. I'm probably annoying people with all of my updates. It's really hard when you're between p-docs and your therapist is out of town. I'm normally not clingy or insecure all the time.

Thanks for asking.

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WTF THINKER!
Look it up: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amitriptyline
Its an antidepressant.
THIS IS MAKING YOU WORSE. Antidepressants may or may not throw you into mania/dysphoric mania. You need pills from a pdoc who understands you. just because your pcp can prescribe doesn't mean she specializes.
try ambien, lunesta, trazadone.

Hmm...I did read that it was an anti, but I'm taking it at such a low dose (20mg) that I don't think that should matter. I think probably the reason I got some sleep last night was taking the walk (probably 3 or so miles). I only took it for the first time last night, so my mania or hypomania was present for 2 weeks prior to taking it.