[Rebound]

Hey folks. Further to my post in the General forum, I thought I'd take a minute and ramble a bit about what's up, down, and sideways for me these days.

Once the full blown mixed episode I was in (that caused me to join here in the first place,) passed over and I sank in to a nice sinking depression, I virtually ceased to come here. I didn't go anywhere either though, so it's nothing to do with you folks, and to be frank, I was expecting it to happen - it always does. I'm sort of forcing myself to come back tho because I very much want to preserve what I have gained since joining.

Normally, when I go through a mixed or manic phase, I form all kinds of relationships to a greater or lesser degree of intimacy. But inevitably, I enter into a slow glide down into a deep depression usually lasting months. During that time, I usually just disconnect myself from everyone, and when it is finally over, I don't know anyone anymore and I start all over, too embarrassed to try to communicate with those I met most recently due to not having tried to contact them for months.

I'm making every effort to make this the exception to the rule. This site is outstanding. Better yet, the people I have met here have been simply fantastic. I am glad to have met each and every one of you. You have all been in my heart and in my thoughts during my absence.

My life has taken on some structure now that I have found a job. I could double the length of this post describing what it has been like for the last few weeks with finding this job and starting training. Suffice it to say, panic-stricken and elated both come to mind. I don't want to whine, and anyway, I think you can guess. So I'm hangin' on, if only by a thread. At least I'm working so at least I can pay the bills. That's one worry off my mind.

Sorry if it sounds like the entire post is just "oooh poor me, look, isn't that sad? wainnn...." It's honestly not my intention. I wanted to let everyone know I am still around - just gonna be sporadic for a while - and I wanted you to understand the why of the situation a little better. "'Cause I haven't felt like it," just didn't sit with me as a fair answer to why I keep disappearing for long periods.

[sqrlb8]

I'm so glad to hear from you Reb, and good news on the job front.

You explained so clearly how things have been for you. Thanks for letting us know. I hope I see you more and more. Take care.

Hey! Stay connected to Psych Central, okay???? xoxox pat

[silver_queen]

I'm glad to read an update from you, rebound! it's good to see you in touch with us again!

[Rebound]

Thanks for the kind thoughts. I really appreciate it. I'm sure we'll talk soon.

[Junerain]

I can relate in having mania coupled with new relationships..then slowly the depression creeps back in..yet here in cyberspace we are'nt hurt if you drift a little..we do too!! We love you when you're here or away!!

[MacD]

Love your attitude...and your taste in music....hang in and I hope we get to meet in chat sometime...or feel free to pm...grace