[BNLsMOM]

A few weeks ago, I clearly heard a male and a child talking in my head. I couldn't make out what they were saying other than one phrase. I was going to sleep when it happened. I am so intrigued by them that I have been trying to invite them back so that I can talk with them.

They haven't been back, but last night I heard two different voices calling my name. They used my full first name. Most people who know me call me by my shortened name. They sounded like they were falling away or fading out as they called me.

I was almost in a state of sleep. I was very relaxed when it happened.

How can I invite these voices, or people, or whatever they are to talk to me when I am more conscious?

I am not afraid. I am curious. I want to know if there is a message for me either from my own subconscious, or from somewhere parralel to this world.

[1963.Susan]

BLNsMom -
this may not be a very popular answer, but i would be very careful. in my humble opinion, voices are not something to invite. most people don't WANT to hear voices, but some are forced to. most of the time, from what i have heard from others, these voices are not nice. they are not helpful. they are not supportive. whether they are from your own mind or another source, they may make you worse off than you are.
please, please, be careful what you are inviting.

[BNLsMOM]

Thanks. I totally get that. These didn't seem malicious in any way.

[MickG]

I agree that it is probably not a good idea to invite those voices. I understand your curiousity and wanting to find out what exactly is going on and where they are coming from but take it from someone who hears them 24/7 it is a heavy life to bear. Even if the voices are nice (and not all of mine are) once you begin to hear them regularly all sorts of thoughts come into play including the realization that nothing is private. Your life is no longer yours. It is a feeling of total invasion.

I do believe that there is far more to the world and its workings than we could begin to imagine but for now I suggest you enjoy your life and the freedom you have. Believe me it is a gift.

I wish you peace.

[lonegael]

((((BNLsMOM)))))) I would also be very carefull. Most of the time, these things are just some brain function short circuiting , but I suspect strongly that inviting them in can open yourself to other trouble. I don't think we know enough about what is out there to know how risk free that might be. My voices come and go. Usually don't have much to say to me personally. I like to keep it that way Huggs!

I get ringing in my ears and think I hear something but nothings there.
Sounds like people talking out side my window - But I live in a house, away from anyone

[BNLsMOM]

I talked to T today about this. He said that he has no problem with me exploring spirituality but to be careful about it.

He would rather see me do it under controlled circumstances rather than in an uncontrolled way.

I have to decide if the voices are a part of spiritual communication rather than a part of my illness.

I read something pretty cool about hearing voices. That they can be invited in a controlled way and told to stop when you want them to. I don't know if that works for everyone.

I had my little guy with me at my appointment, so I was a bit distracted, but I think I got the gist of what T was talking about.

[BNLsMOM]

Here's a better explanation of what I am thinking:

I guess I want to find out if the voices are a spiritual calling of some sort. I don't necessarily want to pathologize the voices. I want to open my spirituality and allow them to come through.

There isn't enough available language for me to describe what I want, so I am doing the best I can.

I also read about Animal Totems today and the ones that I suspect are mine amazingly describe who I am, what I aspire to and what I want out of life. I have more reading to do. I have a copy of Animal Speak somewhere in my house. My shadow, the wasp, represents all the things in my life that have been pathologized, and it is the animal I fear most in the world.

I am wondering if bipolar is really a disease or if it is an opening to spirituality. I am wondering if my depressions have been a result of my blocking my spirituality from my life to appear normal in a rather non-spiritual, fearful world. I wonder if I am medicating the potential for learning and slef growth out fo my life, or if I can work with the medicine as a way to control my emotions while I study what else is out there in terms of reality.

I am wondering if bipolar results as a disease when we let it become us. If we are able to let go and realize that it is a part of us that we can't control, provide safety (medication) to experience it, without trying to make it go away I wonder if we can heal from it and live strong, meaningful lives because of it rather than in spite of it.

This idea has left me shaking. I am not going to try too hard for the voices. I am going to unblock myself so that they can come through. I have so much personal work to do and I think I may be on a path that resonates more within my soul than the one that I wan on whith pathologized every thought and every feeling. It's time for me to embrace bipolar and celebrate it as a gift and as a power.

I should stop before I get out of control. I apologize if I am beong triggering. I feel as if I never have to be depressed again!

[MickG]

I certainly understand feeling “called” and though I do not suffer from bipolar disorder I do think there are aspects of a spiritual dis-ease that we share. For me medications have not worked and though I do not recommend anyone go off medication without consulting with their doctor and careful consideration, I have found other things helpful. Things where I am actively creating tend to work for me. Things like art, music, journalling and even my banter with the voices can be considered creation and shamanizing. I also have the support of my family and this is very important.

I wish you the very best and much peace.

[leah0306]

i have had heard someone saying someones name, that liked to scared me to death, but have also, and often, hear what sound like voices from an old broadcast radio, discussing something almost too faint for me to hear. it is intriguing,...