[caring_whiterose]

I am a little down today. I was fine in the morning but then a lovely bipolar mood swing happened. I got sooooooo mad at work because this on girl talks all day and never gets anything done. I work my butt off so hard and she talks to another girl. The other girl talks and works so thats ok. Plus I do different work then the because I market on the phone all day and I am in my own area (I work at an insurance company). There service the policies. Thye don't really even talk to me. My boss talks to me and I talk to her. The everyone calls me a kiss ***. Plus they make fun of me becuase sometimes I say weird things. They think I am stupid but I am very smart. No one believes it there though. Then think I am like a little kid. That upsets me so much. Who knows maybe a and stupid? That made me in a bad mood. Ugh. I am sorry for venting so much. Thank you guys for listening to me. (((((((((((everyone)))))))))))

[FeelingHopeful]

Dont Feel Sorry, Vent away,We are all here to listen, Sorry your going through such a tough time! Hugs!!

[Junerain]

I say weird things too, and am considered younger than my age and/or intelligence..

I call it 'eccentricity..'

Be proud you have character, embrace your uniqueness. Most people I find boring- people like us are refreshing, the true heart and soul of society!!

((((Thank God for interesting people))))))

((((((They are worth their weight in gold)))))))))))))))))))

[caring_whiterose]

Thanks today is better so far but I really havent talked to anyone. I am just glad it is Firday!

Originally Posted by Junerain

I say weird things too, and am considered younger than my age and/or intelligence..

I call it 'eccentricity..'

Be proud you have character, embrace your uniqueness. Most people I find boring- people like us are refreshing, the true heart and soul of society!!

((((Thank God for interesting people))))))

((((((They are worth their weight in gold)))))))))))))))))))

[perpetuallysad]

My internet has barely been working, I tried to post a response to you this morning, but I couldn't get it to go through, so the gist of what I said is something like this:

It really sucks when you feel weird for the things you say to other people. I am notoriously bad about doing just that. I am not good at typical small talk and tend to have sort of not ordinary things I think about. I'm sort of like a random talking encyclopedia, so the things I say are whatever random thing I've been thinking about for a while or whatever topic has caught my interest recently. So I really understand feeling strange about the things you say. I am sorry the people you work with are jerks! Until a few months ago, I seriously thought i was the only "saying weird things" person in the world. But I have found out, through posts on here, that a lot of bipolar people are like me and it made me feel A LOT better about myself. Even if I still really cannot chit-chat with people I, at least, know that somewhere out there there are people who think like me. If you have the time, read through this post I made. It really, really made me feel better to realize I wasn't so weird and so alone.

http://forums.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=116522

[lonegael]

I heard the sweetest thing from a colleague today. He is actuallay a very supportive colleague, as the majority of my colleagues are (there are non I would call "Unsupportive"). He heard I might find a job working with kids and he said, "Yes, that I could see. We'd rather have you here, but if you must go, it should be to children (he's Hungarian). There is so much child yet in you."
I think many of us send signals of being younger than we are. My colleague made a point that he didn't mean immature. maybe we are less defended in a way. Pooty poo, I think that your workmate's problems is that they are pretty blasted immature themselves and just can't deal with anyone different than themselves. I also got termed a Kíss ¤ss when I worked in the states because I was with the boss or manager just as I am with others, friendly. I have to have a reason not to be, and that reason has to be pretty major compared to others.
It is a pain having to deal with little girls playing at being grownups and having no idea what it's really like, huh? Where i work, there are some folks who aren't colleagues but share our department's personal room with theirs, and they are FIFTY+ and still acting just like that, little girls playing at being world wise adults. Best not to notice them. their Dumbness is irritating but it doesn't reflect on you. Vent away. We get it. HUGGSS

[caring_whiterose]

I want to clearfy something, I don't act young a lot of people say I am super mature for my age but only work thinks a am young. I act no different though. I am not being mean though. Oh and I though the day was going ok until this one lady was falling over her words and she was confused and my Boss said you pulled a Jade and eveyone laughed. I laughed just to fit in but it made me feel horrible. I am not dumb and I am not stupid! I have been through way more the most of the people here! (at work I mean).

Originally Posted by lonegael

I heard the sweetest thing from a colleague today. He is actuallay a very supportive colleague, as the majority of my colleagues are (there are non I would call "Unsupportive"). He heard I might find a job working with kids and he said, "Yes, that I could see. We'd rather have you here, but if you must go, it should be to children (he's Hungarian). There is so much child yet in you."
I think many of us send signals of being younger than we are. My colleague made a point that he didn't mean immature. maybe we are less defended in a way. Pooty poo, I think that your workmate's problems is that they are pretty blasted immature themselves and just can't deal with anyone different than themselves. I also got termed a Kíss ¤ss when I worked in the states because I was with the boss or manager just as I am with others, friendly. I have to have a reason not to be, and that reason has to be pretty major compared to others.
It is a pain having to deal with little girls playing at being grownups and having no idea what it's really like, huh? Where i work, there are some folks who aren't colleagues but share our department's personal room with theirs, and they are FIFTY+ and still acting just like that, little girls playing at being world wise adults. Best not to notice them. their Dumbness is irritating but it doesn't reflect on you. Vent away. We get it. HUGGSS

[lonegael]

No, hon, I didn't mean that YOU were, I meant that THEY are acting more immature. I don't see that there is anything wrong in how you wrote you act. I just meant to say there is something about some of us, myself included big time, that seems "childlike" to many people, but NOT immature, irresponsible or otherwise "Childish" (note diference).
I am so sorry that your boss chose such an unfortunate way to joke about this other lady's talking problem! How humiliating! People don't realize how badly that stuff hurts. they just don't. Pootypoo, I can understand that so well (I can't formulate a sentence straight to save my life sometimes). HUUUGGGS and a nasty stare at your workmates.

[lonegael]

Oh! I just saw that my reply didn't get posted! Pooty poo, in no way do I think that you are childish. I didn't see anything of the sort in your post. Rather, I think there is often somehing about those of us who have MI's that strikes other people as childlike. I think it might be that we have gotten far more used to watching ourselves, and we just don't have the time or the energy for the gameplaying most of the time. That strikes some silly people as "naive", usually because they can't see themselves and how they act the way we always see ourselves. You are far from immature, dear, or suffer from any of the ills that go with it. Your workmates, on the otherhand, qualify for that.
I was also so sorry to hear that your boss made that foolish comment. How that must have hurt!!! And to think that a lot of people who have other things to worry about have a hard time formulating things right. Let's face it, you brain simply works differently than her's, and from what I hear, it sounds like that's a Positive thing!
I'm sorry if I sounded like I was dissing you, Pooty poo. I certainly didn''t mean to. Huugs

[lonegael]

Oh drat. I hate this computer.

[VickiesPath]

((((((((((((((( pootypoo82 )))))))))))))))

[caring_whiterose]

Awww, I am sorry you hate your computer. To end the day off I slipped and fell on ice outside of my work. I already strained my back from 2 weeks ago but I don't know how and it still hurts really bad. This didn't help I feel on my hand, butt and back now I am sore!

Originally Posted by lonegael

Oh drat. I hate this computer.

[Psyched]

I act childish & stupid, even though I'm actually pretty smart- although after I behave that way & say weird things, & people reject me constantly because of it, it convinces me that I am retarded. I've always attributed this behavior to my reclusiveness & anxiety (how can you develop social skills if you're never around people?). Is it a common trait of Bipolar Disorder ( I may have type 2) to behave this way? I thought I was the only one, too, until I read this thread.

[lonegael]

Well, again, I don't think it is CHILDISH that is the common denominator, or stupid even, but I know that I seem to send signals to others that I am "undefended" perhaps (Psychologically) and that makes me seem younger to them, although what I say and do (except for my odd formulations and metaphores) doesn't seem to puch tose buttons. I suspect some of the smae goes on with man, who have Bipolar that I know, even those who really are older than their years.
Maybe it's the unbridled enthusiasms or deeply felt emotions? anyone? It's not really immaturity.

[Psyched]

lonegael- I hope I didn't give you ar anyone else the impression that what we are talking about here is bipolars being immature or stupid. I know that I am not stupid. I do feel that way when I say inappropriate things & when I behave inappropriately young for my age, & I know that people notice it & it has a terrible effect on my life. Posters on this thread have complained about that. I'm just asking others who have this disorder if it seems to ring true for some of them & if they feel that it's a product of their being bipolar, too, because I'd always assumed that I did it as some sort of defense mechanism or lack of social skills, which other bipolars don't necessarily deal with. My Pdocs have always told me that they couldn't give me a conclusive answer as to whether or not I am BP2 since "there is no blood test or any kind of test for it". It's very frustrating!!! I found this thread interesting b/c I can relate, & I'm just trying to figure myself out.

[Psyched]

I'm sure you understood me the first time- I have SEVERE depression & it's really clouding my comprehension. Just always afraid that I'm going to say/write something that will be misconstrued, when I'd never offend anyone. I have a lot of trouble understanding posts that I read sometimes, so plz bear with me! Thanks!

[lonegael]

((((psyched,))))it's OK, not jumping on you at all, I'm just thinking that like I mentioned, maybe my formulations are kind of wierd, and maybe folks can't follow me. I didn't think you were saying bipolars were immature, just worried you might think of yourself as such. Since you don't (which is wonderful) and since you seem to have understood me (not the easiest thing to do, I know) it's OK. I'm sorry if you though I was upset or something, far from from it.
I'm sorry, it sounds like you are having a really bad time of it. Take care of yourself, OK? Hang in there and i hope you feel better realy soon. Huggs, hon.

[Psyched]

Thanks, lonegael. Everyone seems to be misunderstanding me these days & I'm literally afraid to even talk, so I was just making sure all was good. It was my fault b/c I am too depressed to think clearly & I didn't really understand your post the first time, but then I got it. Thanks for that reply. I am having the worst time & it's nice that some people here care enough to take the time to write what you did. I just replied yesterday to someone with what I'd thought, & still do, was sound advice & was even nice enough to send her a PM. She PM'd back & was really defensive! Didn't even thank me for offering to befriend her or accept my request. Didn't even ask one thing about me out of common courtesy. So stop beating yourself up about being irritable at times (you've written that somewhere) b/c you're a good person & not everyone is!
Anyway, sorry to hijack this thread... the floor is yours, Pooty!

[caring_whiterose]

((((((((((psyched))))))))))))))) it is ok. I am sorry you are soooooo down. Thank you all for your replies too. i does make me feel a lot better that people can relate to me. I have actually tired approaching this different with people also but I am stilled veiwing the same way. I guess I am an easy target. Blah...... I feel like just saying take you best shot it could not be worse then how you already treat me. I want to tell them of but I dont think it would be the best thing for my job.

Originally Posted by Psyched

Thanks, lonegael. Everyone seems to be misunderstanding me these days & I'm literally afraid to even talk, so I was just making sure all was good. It was my fault b/c I am too depressed to think clearly & I didn't really understand your post the first time, but then I got it. Thanks for that reply. I am having the worst time & it's nice that some people here care enough to take the time to write what you did. I just replied yesterday to someone with what I'd thought, & still do, was sound advice & was even nice enough to send her a PM. She PM'd back & was really defensive! Didn't even thank me for offering to befriend her or accept my request. Didn't even ask one thing about me out of common courtesy. So stop beating yourself up about being irritable at times (you've written that somewhere) b/c you're a good person & not everyone is!
Anyway, sorry to hijack this thread... the floor is yours, Pooty!

[lonegael]

((((((((Pootypoo))))))))) Sometimes the most natural thing to do, and the best for you, is the thing you can't do because of things like social norms or stuff like that. Do you think just mentioning that you felt hurt by that type of comment, sometime when you can distance yourself better, might help? It might help your manager if she knows that YOU are also aware of your slips of speech and are bothered by it.
Then again, you know her best, dear. Huggs!

[caring_whiterose]

(((((((((((lone)))))))))))))). The worst part is I have told me boss before and I dont the other people. They still do it though. I have gotten mad to and called them mean and they say cant you take a joke. I say there is a line but they still do it anyway. There is no winning for me. I have excepting it wont change. It just sucks. Sometimes it is funny but even if it isnt i have learned to laugh at everything.

Originally Posted by lonegael

((((((((Pootypoo))))))))) Sometimes the most natural thing to do, and the best for you, is the thing you can't do because of things like social norms or stuff like that. Do you think just mentioning that you felt hurt by that type of comment, sometime when you can distance yourself better, might help? It might help your manager if she knows that YOU are also aware of your slips of speech and are bothered by it.
Then again, you know her best, dear. Huggs!

[perpetuallysad]

In my opinion, being picked on is never funny. I'm sorry things aren't getting much better for you.

Originally Posted by Junerain

I say weird things too...<snip> I call it 'eccentricity..' Be proud you have character, embrace your uniqueness. Most people I find boring- people like us are refreshing, the true heart and soul of society!! <snip>

Originally Posted by perpetuallysad

<snip>It really sucks when you feel weird for the things you say to other people. <snip>. I am sorry the people you work with are jerks! <snip> If you have the time, read through this post I made. It really, really made me feel better to realize I wasn't so weird and so alone.
http://forums.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=116522

Junerain's got a great take on this and I totally agree! So many people are so blasted ordinary that they just don't know quite how to deal with us, so unfortunately, they often choose the mean route. While I don't mind people saying that I'm, "a bit odd", I'm not so fond of (as one coworker put it), "You are SO weird!!!"
And pootypoo82 (love your user name btw -- and that it rhymes!), I hope you did get a chance to read perpetuallysad's thread. We are interesting and not alone!

It does suck that your coworkers think their "humor" is ok (it's NOT!), but I hope you can take heart in the FACT that we bipolars are exceptionally interesting and cool, even if some others don't get it. Their loss.

[caring_whiterose]

Thank you very much and pootypoo is my fiances nickname and he was born in 82.

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Junerain's got a great take on this and I totally agree! So many people are so blasted ordinary that they just don't know quite how to deal with us, so unfortunately, they often choose the mean route. While I don't mind people saying that I'm, "a bit odd", I'm not so fond of (as one coworker put it), "You are SO weird!!!"
And pootypoo82 (love your user name btw -- and that it rhymes!), I hope you did get a chance to read perpetuallysad's thread. We are interesting and not alone!

It does suck that your coworkers think their "humor" is ok (it's NOT!), but I hope you can take heart in the FACT that we bipolars are exceptionally interesting and cool, even if some others don't get it. Their loss.