[Fire_Star]

Gah, frustration.

So, today I got a call in the morning saying the finally got a session sorted for me tomorrow to see the psychologist. I only have had one session so far and she said she'd see me weekly as a priority patient as I'm travelling back to my home state next month. Once I go home, we'll make contact via phone probably and then when I'm back in her state (I travel between both alot) I can have regular sessions.

But dammit, she got sick today and is now in hospital so I don't know when I get to have a session. :-( She's so lovely, I hope she's only in overnight and it's nothing major..

But now I'm starting to get back into '**** getting treated' mode. The delay in the processes involved to even be told, 'you should probably be treated' is taking too long. I know I'm broken, hence why I came to you, health system. I've accomplished having someone give me their opinion of what's wrong with me. I've waited for at least 8 years (not really that long compared to the stories I hear) for my shiny bipolar label. Time to go crawl in a hole for awhile. I don't know how I can make anymore progress now.

I don't know about staying untreated is a good idea. But I really don't give a toss anymore.

[BNLsMOM]

I know it is so frustrating to get treatment even when you don't have travel restrictions messing things up, but it is worth it.

My T had to go to the hospital and cancel several appointments with me earlier this year and although I felt badly for him, I also had mixed feelings at the time and was angry. I had to remember that he is aperson, like me and can and will have life events get in the way of some of our appointments. I did feel as if I wanted to give up, but I hung in there.

OK, I am rambling and I am not sure I am helping at all, here...

Just hang in and it will work itself out.

[lonegael]

BNLsMOM said it all, but I just want to back her up and encourage you to keep trying. It can be very frustrating to get treated; many systems are et up with the assumption that one has to be foaming at the mouth for treatment to be necessary, like here (Sweden). Yep, one must be strong to be sick. Huggs, and please see about you getting some regular treatment, OK?

[Fire_Star]

Thanks guys. Taking the day off work to destress and get into a positive mood. I'm a really organised person so my stress levels shoot up when my calendar gets messed up! I really need to work on that.

Hopefully, once I start uni for this year, things will have a routine back. Problem though then is, I'm not sure if I should tell my family about being diagnosed and seeking treatment. I live at home still as I study full time so I'm pretty poor but I rather not have them know about it all. Mainly because in the past they wouldn't believe me when I said something was wrong. But maybe if I talk to them now, with all the the recommendations from doctors, that would be enough 'evidence' for it to be 'real' to them? But I'm not sure.

Originally Posted by Fire_Star

Problem though then is, I'm not sure if I should tell my family about being diagnosed and seeking treatment. I live at home still as I study full time so I'm pretty poor but I rather not have them know about it all. Mainly because in the past they wouldn't believe me when I said something was wrong. But maybe if I talk to them now, with all the the recommendations from doctors, that would be enough 'evidence' for it to be 'real' to them? But I'm not sure.

Hi Fire Star

Several years ago, when I first had to go to see a pdoc about my bipolar (which wasn't diagnosed at that time yet), I also kept it from my parents at first. Then things were kinda getting out of control (I'm not saying that is your case) and I understood that it was better to tell them to have their support. They were against going to a pdoc and stuff like that, so I was really afraid of telling them. The answer was: let my pdoc phone them and tell them what was wrong. I know that that was not the most courageous thing I could do, but it certainly took a lot of stress off of me. And was a good opportunity to start talking with them of "those kind of things". Maybe you could do something similar, and who knows, it could work for you too
Good luck!

- Cat

[Fire_Star]

Hey Cat, that sounds like an awesome way to do it! I didn't think of trying it that way. Thanks for sharing your experience. I'll think about doing something similar. It's seems to be an easier way to avoid an initial conflict over it which is want I want to try and avoid/tame down.