[ldm120206]

I have no idea what is wrong with me...I am in a relationship that has lasted for 3 years..he is a wonderful man...goes to work ...comes home...takes wonderful care of me and my daughter...i know his whereabouts 24/7....I have been killing this relationship with my moodswings...insecurities...feelings of despair....he has never cheated...but i am constantly worrying that he is...he is wonderful to me...but i have been moody...mean...distant...snapping at him for no reason....i have a great life...he works...i take care of the house...there is nothing that i want for...but i live every day in misery...like my life is awful...it isn't...I love this man...but I have almost driven him away with my insanity....now we are at a point where our future is not so certain and i am heartbroken...I cry all day...I am trying to get a grip and turn myself around...but I am afraid I have done too much damage.My heart hurts.

[BNLsMOM]

I have been there with my husband. We are in counseling together. between that and my treatment, we are doing better than before. You aren't alone.

[ldm120206]

Originally Posted by BNLsMOM

I have been there with my husband. We are in counseling together. between that and my treatment, we are doing better than before. You aren't alone.

it is just really hard not knowing how this will all end....but noone can predict the future

[Ascension]

I know how it is to feel like you have stated in your post. Are you in a treatment program? This could be any number of things from unprocessed feelings about another relationship to something deeper. I think it would be good to talk to someone about all of this to help you figure out what will help you feel better and in that be a better partner for your other. You have the important things, you love and cherish him but you just need a little help dealing with the things that may be causing you to show that love in a bad way. I hope you find happiness in your relationship. Let u sknow what happens.

[dj586858]

I am sorry you are suffering so much and your relationship is at risk. I would think your concern over his faithfulness comes from where mine did - I didn't want to live with myself, how could I expect him to not to want to be somewhere else and look elsewhere. As far as the mood swings and snapping goes, you need to be in the right treatment for you. Once you are, all of that will get better. Just try to reassure him, and yourself, that this not your fault...or his. It is an illness and, as difficult as it can be, you need lots of patience and support. The real you will be back and life and love will improve.