[BNLsMOM]

So I was lying in bed waiting for my Seroquel to take effect and suddenly I felt like I was remembering things from childhood and early adulthood in living technicolor. It was as if I were on a tour of things that happened to me.

Now, I have never been sexually abused repeatedly by the same person, but I have had several one-time, bordering on abusive experiences by different people at different times in life.

Like in "A Christmas Carol" I felt last night as if the Ghost of Christmas past were taking me on tour of every one of them. There were a few that I hadn't remembered before last night and it was both shocking and upsetting.

I kept going back and forth between several of them and going back to preeschool years trying to see if there were any more that I have repressed.

I felt as if I were glued to the bed. I wanted to get up and scream and shake it off but I was stuck.

Today I feel OK.

What the heck was that?

[Ascension]

I am sorry you had such a bad experience. I can relate to having bad dreams/experiences and not being able to wake or shake it off. I have had 5-6 episodes were I woke and could not move, sleep paralysis I believe it was. I think this is something that should be discussed with your therapist. I noticed from your other post you had some concerns about PTSD and that is a good thing to figure out and work through. I hope you have a better night tonight. I am sending you my best wishes and thoughts.

[jennaorgana]

i have the most VIVID dreams when i take seroquel. sometimes after i take it, i get this urge to write PROFOUND things, but i can't keep my eyes open or urge my arm across my own body to grab a pen.

i haven't realized things about my past like you... but that seems TERRIFYING. it is completely understanding that you would be shocked... if i remembered things like that i would never want to take seroquel again.

it might be just the chemical reaction... antipsychotics, even atypical ones, are like chemical straightjackets... it affects people differently

thats sooo interesting though

[BNLsMOM]

I was awake, for sure, because after it stopped it took me a good hour to calm down and get to sleep. It was like a waking dream.

I have been on Seroquel since August. I am amazed it would take this long for a reaction like that to pop up, epecially on the low 50mg that I take.

I have had vivid dreams since starting Seroquel, but they are usually had toward morning.

Actually, I am a bit leary of going to bed tonight.

Chemical straightjacket.... very accurate.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by BNLsMOM

So I was lying in bed waiting for my Seroquel to take effect and suddenly I felt like I was remembering things from childhood and early adulthood in living technicolor. It was as if I were on a tour of things that happened to me.

Now, I have never been sexually abused repeatedly by the same person, but I have had several one-time, bordering on abusive experiences by different people at different times in life.

Like in "A Christmas Carol" I felt last night as if the Ghost of Christmas past were taking me on tour of every one of them. There were a few that I hadn't remembered before last night and it was both shocking and upsetting.

I kept going back and forth between several of them and going back to preeschool years trying to see if there were any more that I have repressed.

I felt as if I were glued to the bed. I wanted to get up and scream and shake it off but I was stuck.

Today I feel OK.

What the heck was that?

it could have been just about anything reliving past memories because you are mentally at a place where your brain thinks you can handle knowing, it could have been a medication or mental disorder induced hallucination mixing reality with not real elements. it could have been you reading things here are messing with your subconscious mind so that you are taking on other peoples problems as your own. it could be anything even some physical medical problem going on manifesting itself in messing up your thinking processes. the only way to know what it was is by you telling your therapist, psychiatrist and doctors that it happened so they can adjust medication if needed or run some tests to find out what it was. Id say its time to call in the professionals and go through the loops with them to find out what it is so you can get the right treatment for the problem and then you wont have to worry about it any more.

[BNLsMOM]

My T and I are going to explore the thoughts in a safe way in his office.

[lonegael]

Maybe you are having hypnogogic hallucinations? I used to have them when I was taking Serazone. i would swear people were walking in, sitting on my bes, talking to me, etc all just as I was falling asleep or waking up. All very realistic, coherent, some part of my mind was really trying to talk to me. Also, very freaky.

[BNLsMOM]

The thoughts were all in my head, so I don't know if they fall under the category of hallucination.

[dj586858]

Wow, that sounds horrible! I have never been on that medication but do have awful, hurtful dreams every night that I have been told are caused by my medicine. Did you eat something different before taking the medication or take it on an empty stomach or anything unusual like that? I think that could have changed the way your body reacted. I hope you and your docs can figure it out quickly and put a stop to it! Good luck!