Bipolar

My doctor said that Im showing sign of being bipolar. Thatd make my life make wayyy more sense.

For some reason lately I feel so misunderstood, like I'll do something but people take it in a different way or the way I act is not normal when its just me, I feel like ripping someones head off, Im so stressed out and I feel like Im alone in all of this. I have crazy insomnia some nights then I sleep for 14 hours the next day. The smallest thing sets me off and I just wanna crawl in a hole and die.

My sister is being a btch saying "Loneliness is the human condition and nothing can fill that void" Well good for ****ing you, you can deal with that void. I CANT. I just need someone to help me Im going ****ing insane and no one is understanding what Im going through and how crazy Im feeling. One of these days Im gonna really hurt someone and its going to be an impulse and I'll end up getting in trouble for expressing my emotions in way I cant express them normally.

This is one reason this board is here. You will find understanding, emotional support and lots of information about bipolar. Like you gave a lot of examples of mania in your post; the irritability, lack of impulse control, insomnia, etc...I would recommend you get a referal from your doctor for a good psychiatrist for an evaluation. In the meantime, there are a lot of good articles about bipolar on this site. There are also a number of quizes as a guide on different disorders. And then of course there's us...always here, always reading, feeling, sharing. Goodluck! Keep posting.

Sounds like major to severe depression. Have you had sustained episodes (several days or more) of being extremly up? Extremely talkative, laughing a lot, racing thoughts, lack of sleep (but not missing it), tons of energy, grandiose thoughts, impulsive spending/gambling, reckless behavior, loss of inhibitions...etc.

With all the agitation and anger in your post it seems more typical of a major depressive episode. You could still be bipolar, but I don't know. Is our doc a GP or a psychiatrist?

Well i was reffered when i was in the hospital but it takes up to 2 months. I was really stressed and angry this morning just my impulse to swear quite a bit when im angry sorry bout that. Yeah ive been quite happy for the past 2 weeks but it started to get bad again and its making me think about su again but id never tell anyone i knew about my thoughts cause id have to goto the hospital just for thinking about it ..... i feel so crazy and horribly depressed all over again my thoughts are racing, im sleeping more, i have almost no appetite, im losing weight, my impulses to do really stupid things is taking control over me and i just plainly want to crawl in a hole and sit there till i die..... gah im losing my ****ing mind .......And its been 4 or 5 weeks since i cut and i blew it tonight : '(