[findingmy_self95]

I was reffered when i was in the hospital but it takes up to 2 months. Ive been out of the hospital for 1 month now

Ive been quite happy for the past 2 weeks but it started to get bad again and its making me think about SU again but id never tell anyone i knew about my thoughts cause id have to goto the hospital just for thinking about it ..... I feel so crazy and horribly depressed all over again my thoughts are racing, im sleeping more, i have almost no appetite, im losing weight, my impulses to do really stupid things is taking control over me and i just plainly want to crawl in a hole and sit there till i die.....

My depressive states last at least a couple of months to almost a year but then Ill get one or 2, if im lucky 3 weeks of being perfectly fine, no yelling, no stress, no cutting and I almost seem happy? Its confusing

The littlest thing will set me into a rampage or into a depressive state

My doctors says im showing signs of being bipolar

GAHH im losing my ****ing mind .......And its been 4 or 5 weeks since i cut and i blew it

[Yoda]

So it will be another month until you can get a doc to prescribe meds?

I am sorry you are having a tough time. You are always welcome here.

[findingmy_self95]

yeah pretty much :'(