[lovelylovely]

Im not looking to be diagnosed on here but merely for some advice. I have know there to be something wrong with me and my mood swings. My new therapist has said exactly the words that I have cyclical mood changes where my moods go up and down, up and down, even by the second. They are pretty erratic. I get so much accomplished when(in my high mood) on a good day and do nothing and feel paralysed on a bad day, it's like im avoidant with day to day things that are important and then one day when I am in a good mood, I will tackle everything. Its always one or the other. Sometimes I am depressed for days, even longer and then suddenly I will think of something and I become ignited like I could jump off the roof or something, my social anxiety decreases and then being that happy becomes all too much and I sink into the worst depression where I consider self harm and suicide and then im off again, a happy,high bee brimming with self confidence. It affects my friendships, people don't know where they stand with me. When I am happy, I become quite arrogant, thinking that I am a special human being and way more superior than everyone else to being the most self-sabotaging person that it worth nothing. My anger also goes to the extreme or at least thats how it feels, its like when I am angry, I want to attack everyone but I control my physical reactions of anger towards people pretty well, I don't want to hurt anyone, I just fly into high tempers when things go bad. Im reluctant to label myself in case I am just a negative thinker and my childhood taught me poor coping skills. However both my parents had MH problems. Im taking citalopram which worked in the first couple of months but now just makes me feel worse. I have resorted to self harm in those very dark moments only to regret it when I see the marks the following day when I am in a more clearer frame of mind. At the time of writing this I am in a relatively stable yet depressed state of mind. I don't know what I will feel like tomorrow. Does anyone of this sound familiar to cyclothymia?

[Anneinside]

I looked it up on Google health and found this:

Cyclothymic disorder is a mild form of bipolar disorder in which a person has mood swings from mild or moderate depression to euphoria and excitement, but stays connected to reality. The cause of cyclothymic disorder is unknown. Although the changes in mood are irregular and quick, the mood swings are far less severe than in bipolar disorder (manic depressive illness). Unlike in bipolar disorder, periods of hypomania often do not become actual mania.

Symptoms:

• Alternating episodes of hypomania and mild depression lasting for at least 2 years
• Patients tend to be more irritable or dark, rather than euphoric or happy
• Persistent symptoms (less than 2 symptom-free months in a row)

From Wiki: Diagnosis requires a history of hypomanic episodes with periods of depression that are not major depressive episodes. The diagnosis is excluded if there are manic episodes or mixed episodes, or if a number of other conditions such as schizophrenia or drug abuse are present

Here's a link to WebMD: http://www.webmd.com/bipolar-disorde...hymic-disorder

[acw56]

Your form does not sound mild at all, to me.

[yutzman]

What does your Psych say about this description?.....I would say he'd think some action be taken regarding this......

[lovelylovely]

He's just diagnosed me with Borderline Personality Disorder which I am certain I don't have. Im really annoyed about it actually, he gave me a book to read to see if I think I identify with it and I don't mainly because it seems very dramatic disorder which im not, I hate crisis and go out of my way to avoid them. Im annoyed with the whole NHS system at the moment, they just sling any old label on you when they don't know what to do with you. I asked my friend for her opinion on whether she thinks I behave borderline and she says she would never have thought I had it. But I do get mood swings. Im so stressed out right now with all of it.

[Anneinside]

Originally Posted by lovelylovely

He's just diagnosed me with Borderline Personality Disorder which I am certain I don't have. Im really annoyed about it actually, he gave me a book to read to see if I think I identify with it and I don't mainly because it seems very dramatic disorder which im not, I hate crisis and go out of my way to avoid them. Im annoyed with the whole NHS system at the moment, they just sling any old label on you when they don't know what to do with you. I asked my friend for her opinion on whether she thinks I behave borderline and she says she would never have thought I had it. But I do get mood swings. Im so stressed out right now with all of it.

Before you dismiss it, at least read about it on this website, Psych Central. From your reaction, I see that you view borderline very negatively but it doesn't have to be that way. People with borderline also have mood swings.

[missmoonshine]

When I was first diagnosed with bipolar I was so angry with the psych team thought they were a pack of incompetent arse***** However without a diagnoses whether correct or not my symptoms still needed treating. I am bipolar and I am now not ashamed of that its a brain disorder the same as any mental illness