[ontar]

Hello.

I feel extremely miserable right now. I don't know what to do, so I figured I could at least write about it.

I was relatively alright half an hour ago, but then I just started feeling this great sadness and emptiness. I can't cry. I can't think or concentrate. Nothing seems interesting or worthwhile. I feel like dying. Really, I feel so ****ing extremely miserable.

Thanks for bearing with me.

[NuckingFutz]

I hear you. I bet you did not think you would get a response so soon. I have been up at o'dark thirty in a really bad place before too. I guess it is my turn to be there. If things get really bad, can you reach out and contact a crisis hotline? It is always good to have a fail safe plan when we get down so low. I am really sorry you are going through such a rough time right now. Perhaps maybe doing some journaling in the meantime might help? I should be up for a bit longer. I will check back with you in a few ok?

[ontar]

Hey. Thanks for the response. I don't know the number for any crisis hotline in my area. Plus, I don't think I could talk about it. Literally "talk", I mean. I can't really talk when I'm this down. And, when you call a crisis hotline it seems to me everything just gets complicated. I'm ****ing desperate. I'm ****ing hurting. Thank you again for not ignoring me.

[Skully]

I know how you feel. I get in the same state and it is really bad. I can rarely talk about it as well although I try to talk to crisis. It still doesn't work out that well. Sometimes I just have to ride out the storm.

[musikcrazy]

I know that horrible feeling. I just came out of it myself. Take refuge in knowing that it will get better. I know that it can seem that every minute is like an hour when you are like this, but there is hope. Are you on meds?

[grizmom]

I understand how you're feeling! Those sudden downward spirals are very disconcerting. Would it be possible to call tomorrow morning and try to get in with your pdoc or T for an emergency appointment? In the meantime, go easy on yourself and keep posting...I hope that this passes as quickly as it came.

[ontar]

Hey.

Thank you very much for the responses. I think it kinda went away. I still feel quite sad though. I'm also very, very tired and weak. I don't know why. And, Skully, yeah you're right, the only thing you can really do is "ride out the storm". Musikcrazy, no, I'm not on meds. Grizmom, I don't like seeing my pdoc, hehe.

Thanks everyone, again.

[FeelingHopeful]

Ontar Im glad your feeling a little better. Not easy when you feel weak. I hope things get better for you. Whenever you feel that way , Please reach out. Pc is a great place for support. everyones here for you .

[ontar]

FeelingSad, Thank you. I'll try to come here to talk when I feel bad, yeah. I really appreciate the support you guys have shown.

[Changeling412]

Hi ontar. I know exactly how you feel and everyone that posted gave good advice. I don't sleep much or very well so if you ever feel like you need to talk feel free to post and/or send a private message. I get email alerts whenever someone sends me a message or responds to a thread that i've subscribed to. I hope u feel better soon.

[ontar]

Hey. Thank you very much. It's very nice of you. I'll try to send PMs when I feel bad. Thanks.

[Trippin2.0]

Originally Posted by ontar

Hello.

I feel extremely miserable right now. I don't know what to do, so I figured I could at least write about it.

I was relatively alright half an hour ago, but then I just started feeling this great sadness and emptiness. I can't cry. I can't think or concentrate. Nothing seems interesting or worthwhile. I feel like dying. Really, I feel so ****ing extremely miserable.

Thanks for bearing with me.

Here are people who understand exactly how u feel, you are not alone, please remember to reach out when you need to vent, cry,laugh or even if you just need a hug....

[sugahorse1]

writing on these boards is definitely easier than really talking.
I do suggest you go see your pdoc to adjust your meds if they are not working. And if you do not like him, may I suggest you find one you do like and can trust.