[BPGirl]

I have recently come off a partial hospital stay (where you go 9-3 and do CBT therapy and are seen by a pdoc every day). I had a lot of problems with meds (some did not work, some made me really ill), so what is supposed to be a 5 day program turned into a 5 and half week stay for me. I was discharged last Tuesday. I am now on Lamictal and Trazadone, and that’s it. I went to see my pnurse/T today, and am feeling very down. We are upping my Lamictal, and will try lithium soon. We spent so much time talking about my meds that we didn’t have time to talk about anything else. I was looking forward to this appointment because I thought I could get some of what is running around inside my head out. My pnurse said she was glad I seemed more stable, and to see some of the sparkle back in my eyes. So how come when I left there, I sat in my car and cried? Stable. Yea, right. I am definitely better than I was. The depression is now manageable, I guess. I just feel crappy. Thanks for letting me vent.
BPGirl

[canineserenity]

I'm sorry you didn't get to talk about anything but meds. It will get to that point but they want to stablilize the meds first. Hopefully next time, there will be time to do more. In my experience, the Pdoc and Pnurse will focus more on meds and leave issues more to the therapists and groups. Did they schedule continuing groups and/or therapy?

[sugahorse1]

I suggest speaking to your nurse about you seeing a T too.
I have also sometimes felt like there's just so much going on in my head, that I don't even get to scrape the tip of the iceberg when I see my pdoc (Also does a bit of therapy). Sometimes I have so much to say, but I just bottle it up, and by the time I get to my car I'm all emotional.
Is it possible that your nurse is someone you really trust and feel safe around, and you don't get much of it in other places in your life? So you cried when you realised the appointment was over, and sort of felt a sense of abandonment? Not sure if that made sense, but I tried.