[Cbminor]

A day ago, I was feeling very strangely, I didn't feel so weird before. Usually when my mania happens is when I am depressed. I am not very depressed right now, however, I got one of the biggest manias I ever had before and I think it is getting worse.

Anyway, I was going crazy with music to the max as usual, but I was much worse. I locked my door, I knew that my parents had the key though. My father came to the door to tell me to turn it down, but completely ignored him. And than finaly, when my father opened the door to tell me to turn it down, I attacked him, threw him out of the room, and barackaded the door with furniture. I dont remember much, I remember I threw all my bed sheets at him and ended up sleeping only on a pillow.

[BlueFaith]

I read what you wrote and I think of myself. I think of all the terrible things I've done when I am manic, and I know I was spiraling out of control too. So, just understand that you aren't alone. I've done some really stupid things like that and then didn't even realize what I had done (or the severity of it) until I had calmed down. If you feel that you are getting WAY outta hand then you should consider calling your doctor or even a crisis hotline if you need to. I hope you are doing better.

-Jennifer-

[Cbminor]

ty am starting to feel better.