[Ascension]

I have been able to handle my Bi-Polar Disorder pretty well for the last few years. I have a good cocktail of meds, a stable living situation and finally have insight enough to know when I am swinging but the last two months or so are wearing on me. I, like Bnslmom(sp?), bought a barn of a home on a manic swing and jumped in head first... I wore myself out both psychologically and physically and now I have got little done in months. It's bad enough that financially things are tight which makes getting materials hard but now I can't get myself motivated to do even small jobs. I have the skills but little ambition. This wouldn't be so bad but I have a wife and a child I need to think of and need to get this place in better shape before winter hits. I go over all the projects in my head I need to get done and I can't get motivated to do any of them, even the easy ones. I need to go to bed but for some reason I have a hard time psychologically going to bed before 4 or so in the morning. I think it stems from the fact that I have to deal with fewer people in my day if I sleep half of it. Thanks for the ear PC. I will check back in later, by which I mean tomorrow as I am going to try to get some sleep at a reasonable hour so I can get stuff done. Night.

[BNLsMOM]

Well, I wouldn't call my house a barn... LOL...

I totally understand the feeling of not being motivated. I spent the last two weeks basically in bed, but I am feeling better, possibly even a little manic and I want to get some stuff done. I just don't know where to begin.

[PT52]

Ascension: sounds like you're feeling overwhelmed, with good reason considering all the responsibilities you have. Hope you're able to put it all in perspective. If your house is livable, give yourself a break from worrying about it. When you're ready to come back to it, don't think about all the projects, just focus on one easy one that doesn't require a lot of cash. And maybe break down the big projects into manageable smaller ones...say, maybe you need to put in new windows. Make the project to do just the windows in one room, and give yourself a pat on the back when you're finished. I know I say this way too much, but it's really true - the only way to eat an elephant is one bite at a time. Good luck!

[Ascension]

Originally Posted by BNLsMOM

Well, I wouldn't call my house a barn... LOL...

I totally understand the feeling of not being motivated. I spent the last two weeks basically in bed, but I am feeling better, possibly even a little manic and I want to get some stuff done. I just don't know where to begin.

Sorry I hope my attempt to be silly about everything didn't offend. It was my way of trying to keep my perspective silly so it didn't seem so dire.

[Ascension]

Originally Posted by PT52

Ascension: sounds like you're feeling overwhelmed, with good reason considering all the responsibilities you have. Hope you're able to put it all in perspective. If your house is livable, give yourself a break from worrying about it. When you're ready to come back to it, don't think about all the projects, just focus on one easy one that doesn't require a lot of cash. And maybe break down the big projects into manageable smaller ones...say, maybe you need to put in new windows. Make the project to do just the windows in one room, and give yourself a pat on the back when you're finished. I know I say this way too much, but it's really true - the only way to eat an elephant is one bite at a time. Good luck!

Words of wisdom. I am trying that today. I got the windows in in the main living area a couple weeks back. I am going to pretty and seal them up since winter is coming. Caulking the air gaps and putting the wood trim around them. I know once I get going again, that the momentum will make me feel better and I can build on it. Thanks for the support guys.