[Liberada]

What's going on with me?? I'm biting at my skin around my thumb nail until its too sore to type and it hurts to wash my hair in the shower because the pressure from the water stings it. I'm sitting up late and getting up early but nothing is getting accomplished during the day.

This is the hard part:

I found a mini size can of ginger ale in the door my refrigerator. It was like a 10 or an 8 oz. My local grocers only carry 12 oz cans. One carries 10 oz bottles but this was a can. No one in the house knows where it came from. I'm chief cook and bottle washer so I buy the groceries. I do buy ginger ale on occasion, but I've never seen a tiny can like this. I don't know where I could have gotten it from. It just appeared in the door of the fridge one day...or so it seems... I googled 10oz cans on the internet and could only find it in bottles.

And there's this yoga DVD I've been looking for for at least a year. I loaned a few out to a neighbor but kept this one because it's my favorite and the only one I use. Karma being what it is, I lost it. I tore the house apart on two seperate occasions looking for it...meaning I even looked in all the places we keep DVDs that we haven't even watched in years. There's a cabinet in the living room that we keep the current ones. I've emptied that cabinet at least five or six times searching for it or some other DVD one of my kids was looking for. It seemed to have disappeared completely. So I ordered another one from Amazon. Not a week after I got it in the mail a looked in the cabinet for a movie for my kid I found my missing yoga DVD sitting right on top of the stack.

There's the little bit of hearing things... last night while DH was at work I kept muting the TV so I could listen and make sure people weren't stopping in my driveway. I thought I was hearing car engines, then car doors.

I even woke up this morning dreaming I was living back home with my Mom and there were people in my driveway there that I didn't know and I was really afraid. I wanted to call the police and DH.

Yesterday all I was able to do was lay on the couch .. I was totally sore in the neck and shoulders...headache and nausea, did all day. I did do one load of laundry. Kids needed clothes for school this week. DH even had to finish making his own lunch before he went to work.

And I had several bouts of crying yesterday too.

I can't wait to see what today holds.

The last time I had any kind of "episode" was in '07 and I was undiagnosed and unmediated. Currently, I'm on 300mg BupropionXL and 40mg Geodon = which I requested to be brought down. ...I FELT fine! I didn't NEED it! lol Back then it was 160mg a day. Maybe it needs to go back up. I've been feeling that for a while now (6 mos, I see pdoc every 3 mos)... maybe it's coming to a peak...? I'm scheduled to see my pdoc again the first week in November.

[blueoctober]

Hi Liberada; have you contacted your p-doc and let him know what's going on? The geodon would be your mood stabilizer and if it was brought down and your anti-d was kept at 300 mg that may be what's causing the problems. I recently had a switch of mood stabilizer and my p-doc had to reduce my wellbutrin from 300 mg to 100 mg. I would suggest contacting your p-doc.

[madisgram]

a call to your pdoc would help ward off more symptoms. even a tweak in your meds authorized by pdoc. hope you will call.

[Liberada]

I figured out the stinkin can of ginger ale. LOL I had bilateral pulmonary embolisms last year and brought a can home with me. I found this out when I had an upper endoscopy and brought home a can I was drinking and realized they were the came size. DUH! ... SANITY SAVED! I was soo relieved. I also talked to my pdoc and got a med change. All better now. ....Still haven't figured out the DVD situation though oh well.

[sugahorse1]

How are things going? Did your pdoc help you?

[blueoctober]

Glad to hear things are going better Liberada.

[ladyjrnlist]

The best way to find something lost is to replace it.