[widgets]

I havent left the house since Monday night..
I know i'll be ok going to work, but other than that i just REALLY dont want to.
I feel ok until i think about the fact that i have totally withdrawn from everything. I havent gone to college.
I know i have a brick wall up in my head stopping me from thinking bout anything in detail.
I decided i would venture into town to meet my friend from work earlier. I got dressed, did my make-up and hair. sat down with the radio on and just literally cant bring myself to go out there.
I dont even know why, my head is fighting the depression so much it wont let me access those thought!!
Not sure if its anxiety or depression or both.
Usually i'll have the fear or the lethargy or something that will tell me why i feel i cant.
But instead i'm just sat here feeling blank, my head wont let my body go out.
Anyone else have this.
I also havent eaten in 2 days.. I dont have an eating disorder and never have, i just havent been hungry.

[Skully]

Are you feeling manic by chance? That is what I do when I get manic. I never leave the house or eat. I feel the edges of depression coming on but managed to fight them off.

[bpd2]

Can you ask your friend to come to your house and take you downtown with him/her? When I get in that place where I can't leave the house, I have to have someone break the spell for me--someone has to come and get me, I can't get out on my own, and not just out of the house, either....

[kitty004567]

((widgets)) I'm sorry you're having trouble leaving the house. I think BPD2 has a good idea to get someone to take you out. I know when I couldn't leave the house (literally too anxious to cross the threshold) sometimes just going out for a drive with someone else helped. We didn't even have to go anywhere.. just out of the house.

[sugahorse1]

I'm so sorry- I feel you pain. I don't want to leave home either, but I have a job to maintain. I cannot afford to be without a job. I am taking such major strain to put one foot infront of another. I feel I'm going to pass out behind my computer today though

[notz]

I'm so sorry you're having such a hard time, Widgets. I can relate with not wanting to go outside. Knowing to put one foot in front of the other doesn't make it happen. Depression is such a wicked cloak to wear.

Although I'm not always very good to me, I do try to do what I learned in Alcoholics Anonymous...HALT. It stands for Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired. These are the areas I try to caretake me with. I throw Thirst in there too. It's important for me.

It's not easy to allow the adult in me care for me. I've actually learned how good it feels to accept goodness from myself.

These are just a few things that I thought of. They work for me most of the time. I hope you feel better soon.