I have to laugh at myself sometimes...

I don't know how many of you can relate to this, but this is me in a pretty common mixed state:

> Someone asks me to do a photo shoot for them, but I am already booked to help run a bipolar support group at that date and time. I want to do the shoot, so I need to contact the support group leader to negotiate some changes.....only there is no answer on the phone. I suddenly need to speak to them NOW!!!!!!! I can't help myself. There is no alternative. No middle ground. No waiting can be done. I have to make a decision right away. So I turn away the photo shoot.

> The next day I am browsing a web site and come across a post that has a rather arrogant undertone to it. (well, I think so, anyway). I don't just think "hmph. that was a bit self opinionated" and move on. Oh no! I feel intensely offended that someone should dare deliberately provoke me into feeling so angry about whatever it was they said that didn't matter anyway. The content of it has long since been forgotten, yet the mood brews and bubbles away and I find myself fighting a ridiculous load of negative thoughts that the original poster probably had absolutely no intention of provoking. They surely had no idea I had read their comment anyway. LOL.

> I give my 10 yr old daughter a huge hug (just out of the blue) and the tears rolling down my cheeks drip onto her neck. She looks up with concern and simply says "I love you daddy". Nothing more said. Nothing more needed. Just acceptance.

If you have something crazy about your bipolar experience to share, post it. It's good to laugh at ourselves now and then.

Working myself into a frenzy bcos my bf hasn't given me the "I'm safe home" sms...
Heart pounding out my chest, ready to cry at the drop of a hat, temperature rising steadily, breathing becomes erratic as mood slowly (or rapidly) dips... and then voila he calls and ALL the symptoms are GONE!

this is one I have to laugh at bcos I know it's avoidable
Personally I think he gets a kick out of torturing me maybe he likes to know I care ( my obsessive texting makes that clear as day)

Bursting into tears bcos I'm overwhelmed ( IDK about you guys, but this happens to me quite easily) Typing a heartfelt email to my bf, or I could be playing with my 7 y.o daughter and then all of a sudden, I'm overwhelmed with how happy she makes me, and at the same time overwhelmed at how inadequate she makes me feel and then I hold her and start bawling... she just looks at me and asks "did you take your pills today mommy?"

Not being able to sit still, bouncing (literally) singing and dancing while I'm at work (my colleagues are very understanding) talking at hyper speed, smiling form ear to ear at NOTHING (like an idiot) how in love I am with the entire buraful world,I can definitely laugh at myself I'm quite silly sometimes...

I decided I needed a bookcase at 10 p.m. and went and bought and spent the night putting it together. NOW, NOW, NOW!!!

>.>

Crying because I gave up my money so I don't spend it in my mixed state.
I still don't have it at the moment, but I realized I did the right thing so I don't feel so bad about not having it. Working on impulse control.

Looks like impulse control is a big one for all of us. Although I must say, spending the night putting a bookcase together sounds like a tough one in any state for me LOL.

Hopping in my car on a cloudy night around midnight to try to outdrive the clouds because a meteor shower is supposed to be happening, and then getting pissed off when I am too afraid to get out of my car because I feel paranoid that someone wants me dead in that field. Driving home after than and pushing the envelope on the speed limit when I pass the police station so that I would get the police to come and help me since I don't have the guts to go in and ask for it myself. (They didn't come so I went home)