[disguise123]

well, i wont be here for a while.
My partner has pointed out how much time im on the net. Im gonna have to stop using it to block out my real life. Im gonna have to face up to what im avoiding.
Im depressed all the time, im constantly suicidal and hating myself for being this way.
But burying my head in the sand of games and facebook is not helping, i cant fake it till i make it. Faking happiness does not create it.
I will be ok, i will be strong
I just wont be here often
But thankyou all for the support, its been a lifeline
But i gotta go face reality now..
Xxxxxx will be hoping that those of you i have spoken to are well and moving forward each day.
Love rapidcycla.

[ladyjrnlist]

I hope you get a chance to read this. You don't necessarily have to go cold turkey, do you? I mean, this can be a distraction, but also a place for fun and healing. HUGS

[cautious hope]

I am glad you are taking back some control of your life. Remember that we are always here for you. I need to point out that there are some members who will never be leaving and this is the most interaction they get. I admire thier courage to reach out. I commend everyone at this site that fights the good fight and finds progress and peace.

[sugahorse1]

Congrats on taking this big step. It must have been a huge committment.
I do agree with ladyjrnlist - maybe start by just cutting the time (Something I need to do, else I WILL get fired from my job for non-performance )

I hope things sort themselves out. And I'm sure your depression will be helped through interaction with people.
Thinking of you!

Originally Posted by rapidcycla

well, i wont be here for a while.
My partner has pointed out how much time im on the net. Im gonna have to stop using it to block out my real life. Im gonna have to face up to what im avoiding.
Im depressed all the time, im constantly suicidal and hating myself for being this way.
But burying my head in the sand of games and facebook is not helping, i cant fake it till i make it. Faking happiness does not create it.
I will be ok, i will be strong
I just wont be here often
But thankyou all for the support, its been a lifeline
But i gotta go face reality now..
Xxxxxx will be hoping that those of you i have spoken to are well and moving forward each day.
Love rapidcycla.

rapidcycla... I've heard from my BF that I spend too much time here (though only once when he actually voiced it... quite a bit..), is there a chance you can have at least a set amount of time to connect here? If I were cut off abruptly and totally from PC... yikes. It is good to deal with real life so to speak, but as long as your head is not totally in the sand, it seems there could be a balance, ya? (FB depresses the heck out of me, but maybe I'm a weirdo that way... There are few I've heard saying it's not a time-sucker...)
Whatever balance you work out, I wish you the very best and hope that you can visit us sometimes, so you can let us know how you are doing. Much love to you!

[disguise123]

so it seems that my partner wont be happy no matter how high i jump. He will just keep raising the bar, so stuff it im here visiting tonight

[colmnach]

well good to see you here, and read what Innerzone posted, above (you probably already have). Just set limits. I think its what a lot of us have to do. Well I do anyway. heh.
Just take care of YOU and worry about the rest later (unless you have pets, then of course make sure they're fed etc. heh.) OK?

(((((rapid))))

me.