I don't want to be Bipolar!!!!

This is probably what I meant with my meds thread.

Anyone else want to yell it out in here?

Just say it! Feels good!

I don't want to be Bipolar!

I DON'T WANT TO BE BPD OR BIPOLAR!!

Wow.. it did feel good, but now my kids are looking at me strange!

With you guys "I DON'T WANT TO BE BIPOLAR!!"

I'm a bit mixed on this one. ('scuse the pun)
I can do without being glued to my bed and suicidal, and I can sure do without being so messed up excited that the world becomes scarey and lonely for all the wrong reasons.
But somewhere in the middle, I can feel and do things that I see many non Bipolar people can't relate to, and I don't want to give that up. It is who I am, and who I have been for the last 40 something years.
If my world stops spinning now, I will be crushed by the gravity of the situation.

If it's any comfort, there are things that are much worse that bipolar.

Yes, it sucks sometimes, but it in the end it can be dealt with and we still can enjoy the life. It's not terminal disease.

I don't like it either

I HATE BIPO!!!!! But yes, I guess there are much worse things. And I do have many good things in my life.

I don't want to be bipolar either!!!! But, since I have to be, can someone give me a touch more hypomania and take this suffocating depression away?!?!?!

Depression ripped away! If you see my hypomania anywhere you can borrow it for a while.

Bless your hearts.I wish I could take it away from you.Bless your hearts.

I could reallllyyyy use some hypomania right now. I know I'm lucky for so many reasons but right now it's hard to feel that way...

This is most definitely a time when I DON'T (EFFING) WANT TO BE BIPOLAR!!!!

im with u guys too all the way i dont want to be Bipolar. its feels good.

It is easy to agree and join
"I DON'T WANT TO BE BIPOLAR!!"
Never hospitalized or even on sick leave, just really exhausted from the work with coping and frustrated when my head shut down.

Hugs to everybody!!!!!

I know there are some pretty great parts about having the bipolar complex and I know there are worse things then being bipolar. I just wanted to create a safe space for us to vent about the lousy part without having worry that people think we aren't grateful for what we do have etc.

I'll say it again.

I do not want to be bipolar!!!!!!!

And this old owl does not want to be bipolar! She don't want Sjogren's Syndrome either! And she wishes lithum didn't mess up her thyroid! But the good thing is that I'm gonna retire the last of April. I told my husband if I wasn't a Christian that I would smoke a big fat joint. He laughed, but he knew I was serious. So much for the past. I'll tell my 35 year old son to smoke one for me. Yes, I know he smokes. I love you all.

I just want to be normal. I don't want to be Bipolar, I don't want to be Borderline, I don't want to be fat, I don't want to be unwanted by my husband, I don't want to be the black sheep of my family, I don't want to be unsuccessful in my career.

But none of that is ever going to change (except the fat part, I'm working on it...)

Nothing wrong with smoking a bit of weed ceremoniously or for pain....I can't because I get paranoid.But I don't think being a christian disqualifies me from smoking lol.Tobacco is no better.Balance in all things is the larger responsibility imo.

Interesting you say that. I have only been around people who were smoking cannabis, and the smell made me feel very uncomfortable and nauseous. I'm perfectly happy with my own tame little pseudo-hallucinations without the heavy warping sensation I get from that stuff. I fear that to actively smoke it would probably put me straight into paranoid psychosis.

And, no, "I don't want to be Bipolar!!!!", but I am, and freaky experiences are normal for me.

I don't want to be bipolar, either. I hate the delusional thoughts, mixed states, depression, problems sleeping, and overall constant tiredness and short attention span. I hate that I feel like a medical burden to my parents who are paying for my therapy. I hate the medication; knowing my metabolism is slowing, that I feel vegetative occasionally and that it works.

That was nice. xD

I didn't know all of these years why my mood changed so quickly and so drastically. I was misdiagnosed as a teenager and untreated for the past 7 years...I finally sought help and the Lithium they put me on made me gain 20 lbs in a month and did not work. I am highly upset about the medication and I am waiting on medical assistance until I can get to a psychiatrist! A crisis center put me on Lithium!! My current circumstances are making my rage horrible!!! I hate being Bipolar!!!!

I know the feeling. Lately I've been up & down and feeling helpless. Its hard, don't have to many ppl to talk to about this. Hang in there!!!!

I hate Bipolar 1. It has destroyed my life. There is no place for me to go but down. Unlike everyone else here on PC, I have no light at the end of the tunnel. I don't even have a tunnel. Well meaning people would say "you've been there before, you'll come out of it again." In my case that's not true either. Bipolar 1, and anything else that's going on with it, has destroyed my body and now it's taking my mind. No, I don't want to be Bipolar. I would rather have Alzheimers or pancreatic cancer.

More hugs to everyone!!!!!!

I am very depressed. I hate this disorder.

I still don't want to be BIPOLAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In retrospect, I wish I were not bipolar. Right now, it is so much part of me that to say I do not want to be bipolar borders on saying I just do not want to be this person in this skin. Weird.

I..don't..want..to..have..bipolar!!!!!