[reader71]

My ex sent me a text about him performing yesterday, so I IM'ed him to say hi. I was always very supportive of his musical asparations, so I wanted to wish him good luck.

We broke up three months ago and since then I haven't really had much contact with him because I needed to heal. In fact, I told him that I didn't want to talk to him at all. Well, the IM conversation led to him telling me really nasty things about him fantasizing about sex with me, and that he was masturbating.

A few weeks ago he sent me a message saying how I changed his life, made him a better person, blah blah blah.......He claims he was heartbroken because I didn't want to be friends and this is what he does when I try???? Oh, and he also has a new GF.

Ugh. I am so disappointed and sad. I also feel like a total fool for even contacting him.

What makes it even worse is that if we were face to face I would probably end up sleeping with him, which made me feel really disgusted with myself. I told him to forget trying to be friends, but I am really upset. It got me thinking last night and I ended up crying for an hour. He is NOT a good person! Why do I miss him? I feel like I just can't get a handle on my emotions in this situation. That's why it's best to keep the no contact rule. Ugh, I just wish I would have listened to myself.

I'll be fine, but I just needed to vent.

[blueoctober]

Yeah I've kicked myself for doing that too. I was doing the same thing with my last ex and I finally just cut off all communication, but it took about a year for me to figure it out! Just remind yourself of how you're feeling right now the next time you consider contacting him.