[ladyjrnlist]

It's time for me to let some stuff out and this is the best place to do it for me right now.

After a severe depression, my mood is better but now my anxiety and irritability levels are rising. I'm having nightmares. I wake every morning anxious as all get out. My meds have me sleepy all freaking day long and they make me forgetful. I freaking overdrafted our checking account for the second time today and forgot to pay the credit card bill!!!!
I was laid off last November, unemployment runs out in a week, can't find a job suitable to me going to grad school, and we have to get through the summer before I get more loans.
My T is urging me to cut back on sessions to become more "independent," which is bothering me even though it's a good idea.
I eat right and exercise and still have trouble taking off weight becuase of the meds. AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGGG!!!!!!

That said, I know many people have it a lot worse and I am blessed to be able to get the help I need for my bipolar. I also know that I am focusing on the negative, which is not good for me. BUT, I just needed to get it out.

[sugahorse1]

((Ladyj)) I'm sorry things are tough. Thinking of you. Just wonder if it's worth getting your pdoc to help with your meds. You've got the depression under control, now it's time to get the rest sorted.
The Wellbutrin has made me irritable, unable to sleep, nightmares and anxiety. I have Klonopin as needed.
Break down the things you need to do into little chunks. Progress slowly, as long as you do get things done.
But don't put pressure on yourself, as you're only likely to crash then