[TallyGlenn]

As I sit and wonder
As I sit here I am pondering what the future might bring. What I see is not encouraging. It looks like the same stuff just on a different day, sometimes I wonder if it is another day or if it is the same one just repeating itself over and over.
I have had to move 3 times in the last month and a half. That is does not lead to stability. The anxiety level is extremely high and sometimes I wonder if it is all worth it. The therapy, the groups, the advocacy, what does it all mean and what good is it doing me or anyone else?
I sit and wonder if I should just pack up a few things and head on down the road to the next place, where ever that place may be. Would I be missed or would anyone even care that I left.
Have I helped to make any changes in the life’s of others or even myself. Or is all of this in vain. Am anything that I am doing or attempting to do making any difference at all? I have been told a few times that I am doing good things with my advocacy though it has not improved my lot in life one iota. So what good is it really. One spends time trying to change the system that is in place to what end?
Does it matter if one advocates for change when no change has happened in the past and it does not look as though any change is possible now?

[Direction]

I can feel what you are saying...

Try to remember the ripple effect. I stone skipped into the water will rarely see the ripples that are formed