[BashfullOne]

I feel that my son is making a life threatening move to a very dangerous part of the country right now - El Paso. He will be a driver for "executives" - transporting them over the border into Mexico to their company offices. Right now their is a high death rate and battel going on between the government/police and the drug cartels. I don't want him to take this job and it's breaking my heart. Just a few days ago he was going to move back into town and I would be able to see him every day if I wanted. But now, he'll be over 24 hours away by auto. He's ex-army and has been trained very well, and he was in Iraq when things were really bad. But he's out of the army now but feels that he has to do this... It's makeing me sick with worry and I can't stop crying. I know we have to let our kids grow up and make their own way in life - but I feel that he is making a huge mistake and I'm asking him to reconsider the job offer. I hope this doesn't make me a bad mother - I love him and he has lived so far from home for so long.... He resides in Denver at this time - 12 hours away from here (to the west) I live in Illinois. I'm so afraid for him.... He lived in El Paso (army) for almost 12 years. When he was in Iraq his then wife e-mailed him that she was divorcing him.... He has been so different ever since that time. Then I thought we were getting the old Brad back and now this - just out of the blue. This company called him Thursday - he decided today to take the job. I guess he "considered" it before taking it.... Ha ha... she says as she crys softly into her tissue...

All I can do is Pray to God to keep a hedge of protection around him at all times, keeping him safe.

Thanks for listening.

Oh Bashfull! Most of all, no, it doesn't make you a bad mother. Not at all! Do you know if he feels he has to do this out of some kind of obligation or economically speaking? In what way do you think he's changed, and for how long has this been? It *is* good to know that at least he's had training and experience in difficult situations, and that is something to keep in mind by way of comfort, yes?

[BashfullOne]

Thank you, Innerzone for your message. I'm some what resigned to the fact that he will be moving. All we can do is support him and pray for his safety. My being BiPolar (manic depressive) isn't helping the situation. But I'm taking my meds and just dealing with things one day at a time. Sometimes one hour at a time. Thanks for being there and listening!! Hugs!!

[blueoctober]

Originally Posted by BashfullOne

I'm some what resigned to the fact that he will be moving. All we can do is support him and pray for his safety.

That's a very healthy perspective bashful. Do you see a therapist at all? If you do perhaps make an appointment to discuss this. I will pray for his safety.

[music junkie]

how is your son doing? did he stay with the job?