is it wrong to miss...

The way I felt before the meds. I mean I know it wasn't healthly the way I wasn't sleeping and flipping out on everyone but know I always feel so blah

I sometimes miss it too because I feel so flat all of the time. But I know that it is better than the alternative. But I totally get what you are saying.

I get what you're saying too. I've been there... But I'm actually in the opposite situation right now. I'm waiting for the meds to work (we switched them up due to new symptoms) because I feel like an absolute mess. But when I was on good meds, I wished I wasn't... It's funny how, regardless the situation, you sometimes want what you don't have.

But I totally get what you're feeling. I don't think it's necessarily wrong.

I am not on all meds that I should be. Have to wait for some heart exams. I am now thinking and wondering will I like being on meds, the new me or will I also miss the unpredictable me. It is hard for me to even think of what it would be like to be in a leveled place. I like been unpredictable I think that is what is really me. I will though take meds if I can so that I can stop the unpredictable part that fam don't like.

Well I'm glad to know I'm not alone

I always miss the way it was before meds. because I was always hypo and got so much done.

Then I was put on Seroquel XR and it made me so numb and blah, so I told her that I felt that way, so she adjusted my meds. so I am off the blah one and on the non-blah one like Abilify. She told me that it isn't living if you just feel blah all the time, so she made a change and increased my Abilify to the max. 30 dose.

that is why i don't want to go on meds. i get manicky a lot.. and i like it. i can live with my depresions.. i could not live without my creative energy.

Depends a lot on the meds.... some meds I felt terrible on and while my body is getting used to be on a med I feel bad but when I'm on a med combo that suits me and works, I feel good - without the brain fog. I had to try a fair few to work out what works for me, and it does take my body a bit of time to get used to new meds where there can be some side effects... Good luck with your search for the right combo of meds for you

IMO,No, its not 'wrong' to miss the way you felt before meds How long have you been taking your meds?

Been bout a month this time around

And how long before they have full therapeautic effect?

I don't think it's wrong especially if you were hypo-manic, although i can say from personal experience when i feel like blah like no emotions whatsoever on meds i always think i was better off depressed...and then i go off them...get depressed and think...wow this isn't quite how i remembered it, no this is definitely worse.Kinda strange how the mind plays cruel tricks making you think you were better off before..no matter how much of a lie it is.

I felt better without the meds I'm on now. Now I just feel flat and lifeless.
In 1987 I was dxd unipolar depression. The pdoc put me on imipramine for AD and clonazepam for my GAD. I was hypomanic and happy for 7 years.
Then in 1994 I moved and my new pdoc put me on prozac. I've actually been on every ssri known to man and the snri's too. On all of them I feel like crap, and I get sooo depressed.
This June I asked my pdoc to put me back on imipramine, and that's when we realized I have BP II. I was feeling way too good - out on a shopping spree with money I didn't have.
So the pdoc added lithium and nozinan. Now I feel like a slug.