[jk2833]

Please all help me,I've had severe mental health issues for years and if you've read my posts you will see that I have a formal complaint going on with the NHS about the lack of help and the way my psych treated me.
After all these false promises I still haven't had any help and its becoming much more difficult to pretend I'm ok in front of the kids,they've noticed my irritability etc its like on inside my head I'm going crazy and hallucinating but putting an act on that all is fantastic.
Things are getting that bad my mam is taking the children away for a week so I can begin to get myself sorted out,what do I tell the crisis team? I'm not going to kill myself but the hallucinations are getting worse thus affecting my seizures and other conditions.
My head is so mixed up I need to do something please help me out members,last time I called them they said they couldn't do anything unless I was going to kill myself! Which is also part of the complaint,I bet they will not even help because I've stood up for my rights
My last visit at psychiatrist bipolar and BPD was discussed but not confirmed as a diagnosis. I'm already on mood stabiliser as this is already perscribed for my epilepsy plus zoloft or sertraline as its called here,dear God I don't know where I am or who I am anymore
Advice please anyone
JK

[mgran]

I'm really sorry you're in such a state... I'd be tempted to lie to them and pretend you're suicidal to get the help you need. You need to be careful, because of the kids, who I know are your first concern (I'm a Mum too, and my son was always my priority, no matter how crazy I was going.)

Tell them that you're confused, you can't think straight, that you are paranoid, hallucinating, can't tell what's real and what isn't, you're frightened you're going to have an accident since you're so anxious. At one point when I was ill I kept panicking when people approached me, and I'd run into the road, nearly got hit by a car several times.

I am not generally one for lying, but if the only way you can get help is to be suicidal, then you have to pretend. I'm sorry... but then they might put you in hosptial, which might make things worse. Is that what you want though?

Tell them what you just said, that you don't know where you are or who you are, depressed, confused, scared. And if you want to add that lie onto the end of it to get help, then do so. It's just not right you've had to wait so long. Some parts of the country are much better than others. Perhaps you should turn up at the hospital for help. I don't know...

One thing, I'm glad your Mum is there for you and your kids.

I'm really sorry, perhaps this is really bad advice, but it's all I can think of.

[zbmom]

Yeah I mean if that's what it takes to get the help I agree with mgran. Maybe appearing to be suicidal might be the best way to get that help. They legally have to do something if your life is in danger.

[SunAngel]

Please definitely lie and tell them you are suicidal so you can get the help you need.

It seems very frightening what you are deaing with so lie, lie and lie some more so you can get yourself some help here.

[jk2833]

Originally Posted by SunAngel

Please definitely lie and tell them you are suicidal so you can get the help you need.

It seems very frightening what you are deaing with so lie, lie and lie some more so you can get yourself some help here.

Hi all thanks for the replies well I spoke to a dr and he asked me if I wanted to be hospitalised and perhaps allowed home after 3 weeks! Are they joking?where do I tell the kids I am? So obviously I refused so I'm back to psychiatric nurse visit which I initially refused as I've seen them that many times I could do their job for them,but apparently it will work in my favour as they can tell psychiatrist I need help quicker.
I also told them about the hallucinations etc which have been put on my file,personally I think they are worried that they will be held responsible for medical negligence,who knows?
I also found out I am to continue to see the psychiatrist I complained about,how awkward will that be? But my social worker has fore warned them that if I am discriminated against due to the complaint there will be trouble (she is fabulous).
I will also be taking a dictaphone into my next appointment in my pocket aswell as taking my husband again.
So really I'm not that farther forward as up until now its still October for my next appointment.
Thank you all so much for your replies and support
Take care friends
JK

[mgran]

Hi JK, I'm glad you spoke to the doctor, also that you've got your bases covered with the psychiatrist. How old are your kids?

[jk2833]

Hi thanks,I'm still anxious about seeing that horrible psychiatrist,my children are 10 and 15 luckily they have not been affected my by mental health in anyway.
I have a fantastic husband who takes the youngest out when I'm real poorly or my mum will have him over and my eldest is always out with friends. I would hate myself if they were afraid to go out due to me passing on my anxieties to them or if they didn't want to leave me incase I was ill,I would definitely not be here if that ever was to happen to my boys.
I love them more than anything
JK

[mgran]

JK, you sound like a wonderful Mum. Like you I have a son who's the world to me, and he keeps me grounded and focussed when just about everything else goes crazy.

He's fifteen, and if I had to go into hospital I'd just tell him the truth. He understands a lot about my illness, and there is support for him if I went in. I fight to stay out though, for his sake.

If you did have to go in at any time, don't feel bad about what you'd say to your children. If they're like I was at that age it might even be a relief for them to know that there's somewhere you can go to be safe. That's how my brother and I felt when my mother went in.

But if you can stay out, do... simply do whatever you feel most comfortable and right about. That can be different at different times.

How are you today? I've been thinking about you.