[mel80]

I hope that it's o.k. to share my frustrations bout my bi polar.Uuuugh I am really hating being bi polar in all it's entirity.I'm over having to take the meds with the way they make me feel.I h8t the fact that certain voices get inside my head and screw me around even more telling me things that become out of control in my mind.I'm really starting to get peeved off with mania yes it's better then depression but uuugh that takes it's toll on me physically and mentally.I h8t the fact that people look at me side ways when I talk and that my stupid voice just can't keep up with my thoughts.I am thanking everyone in advance if you read this and if so Do you ever feel this way ?what helps you over come it all ? thanks

[charlene323]

I get this way often. My family is the worst for giving me the funny looks. I try to find something that occupies me and just not go around them until the worst of it passes.
Yeah I hate when people look at you weird, and I always get a funny vibe from them, in turn makes me think that they think I'm crazy. It really sucks.

[kykid]

I have been frustrated with my bipolar in the past.

But now, I have reached the point where I am at peace with the fact that I am bipolar. I take my medication reliably and am always on the search for other ways to cope. I have the support of family and friends, my church family, my bowling buddies, etc. These all allow me to maintain a sense of normalcy, and pick me up when I am depressed (my most common condition).

Find your cocktail that will keep you stable, develop a network of supportive people, and pursue your hobbies with abandon. These are the secrets of my success.

[BlackPup]

when it gets too much for me I loose myself in a book or dvd series - if I can't concentrate enough to do that then I drug myself to sleep it off... otherwise I just annoy the crap out of everybody around me!!!!!

[~Christina]

Im still trying to come to terms with being Bipolar ,, Its exhausting thats for sure !
Today ,,i am more manic and all that mess but im changing around some meds so i ASSUME its going to be up and down .. today i can cope " Ok " tomorrow thats another story ,,Ill prolly be pissed as all get out tomorrow about the whole mess...

I do beleive in the "Having a Hobby" comment,,, I started making Jewlery and it helps me soooo much as it requires me to focus ,, some days i cant even attempt it .. but i find myself finding more days of being able to focus enough than days i cant ,,maybe im just on a roll and will crash ,,, Hope not but i know i will eventually ..

Wishing you Love and peace and patience .. Bipolar needs SOOOO much Patience !

[ohlala]

I've been dx'd BP1 since 2008 when I went totally manic and was hospitalized for 2 weeks. Since then I have been in various stages of acceptance/non-acceptance of the diagnosis but I do know I hate it and all that it entails (mostly depression for me). I've been on and off with my meds too (not good) but they really weren't working anyway. A month ago I started Lamictal and it just now is starting to work. I choose not to share my diagnosis with anyone other than those who already know. I know the theory about "coming out of the closet" with it will make it more "acceptable" blah, blah and that is probably true, but IMHO and for me personally there seems to be too much of a stigma attached. Seems nowadays everyone throws the term "bipolar" around anyway without really knowing what people with the actual diagnosis really go through. I wish I didn't have it but I do and I have to deal with it, somedays better than others...

[starryz]

We gotta all find the right med combo, support group, or friend and be able to express ourselves to one another

[roads]

Hey there, Mel, my ol' sweetie. Yes, i feel that way, today as a matter of fact. I woke up at 2:30 madly cycling. Oh good grief, nobody told my this would happen! There's so much they dont tell us.

You're a thoughtful sort of guy. Let's ponder this: resistance or acceptance. Each offers advantages.

With resistance, we keep our options open. We can try things on, see how they feel. Say, okay--do I suffer mania? Depression? Mixed episodes? I can "try out" normal for a week: knowing what I know, can I pull it off? Throughout this process I'm going to learn a lot about myself & about my condition. At some point, the answer is likely to be apparent.

With acceptance, there's no effort expended. It's more like that shopper who's satisfied with buying ready wear off the rack. Maybe you'll shorten the leg a bit, but otherwise you're content with a little tightness in the shoulders, some sag at the hips, and a slightly dishelved overall appearance, slightly out of focus. The diagnosis will be equally loosely fitted to you as well; you have agreed to "assume" the Wikipedia profile of Typical Bi-Polar Adult.

I think, Mel, that your resistance & resentment & even hatred is healthy to a point. It keeps you engaged with the changing dimensions of your condition. I believe this engagement is the key to staying better longer. Now I hear you saying you've not hit better yet but better is different for everyone. That we have to accept.

To a point, I said. That point is interrupting maintenance of our BP. Drugs, therapy, whatever. If your drugs are making you feel ways you hate, play with the dosage & work with your pdoc. There are so so many drugs out there!

And so ends my meditation upon ...
Um ...
What were we talking about?