[widgets]

There is a difference.
I was normal yet happy but still had odd experiences and tendencies.
Now to anyone else i will seem completely normal, but thinking is straight and clear but i feel i have absolutely no personality.

[roads]

Originally Posted by widgets

There is a difference.
I was normal yet happy but still had odd experiences and tendencies.
Now to anyone else i will seem completely normal, but thinking is straight and clear but i feel i have absolutely no personality.

Yes, this is familiar. This is my feeling. Do I have options here?

I don't know.

[widgets]

I'm trying to push myself to get some feeling out of something. but all i feel is tired, drained, lazy and boring.

[noneedtoknow]

Jesus, I hope it isn't medication related. That is one of my fears is I will become bland, dull, boring, just flat. God help us all.

[Starchild3]

I feel the same way when I'm not up or down but in the eyes of others normal. Maybe because we feel moods so intense and strong that normal is bland to us. Not sure just a theory. I hate it also!

I also hate this. Is it meds I dunno. Is it really normal ?

[astone131]

I feel as if I have no personality also. I dont know if its the meds or just me. Sometimes its hard to have any feelings at all.

[Laelle]

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 20 years ago and from my personal experience the inability to feel emotion goes with the territory. I tend to create drama for myself and others around me because I need an intensity of pain great enough to bring those feelings back.

As far as meds making me dull, I feared that too. I cant speak for all meds, but Lamictal does a great job without any personality loss. Maybe the first couple of weeks I was on edge, but after that I havent even thought about it.

[Secretum]

I feel boring and without personality often; you're not alone. Sometimes I feel like I don't even exist.

[venusss]

it is probably not ALL med related, as I am au natural (well except the shitload natural supplements and herbal teas I use...) and I get the feeling of emotional numbness. I believe it is defense mechanism... but I still hate it.

fortunatelly these are all temporarily and I enjoy (for bad and good) the intensity for most of the time.

[widgets]

I'm on lamictal and i dont think its anything to do with that because i have had every single mood while on it. Hypomanic, Depressed, Normal and mixed state now this.
Oh well i should be grateful but i'm not.
I also create dramas around me, but i'm trying not to do that at the moment. I'm just ignoring everyone.

[Laelle]

For me taking a very hot bath and reading or listening to music helps.
I have just in the last couple of years allowed myself to enjoy music. Everyone seems to get so much emotion out of it and I felt nothing.

[widgets]

Yes i usually love music, old music, like 70's and 80's, but i just find myself turning my ipod off at the moment. The only thing that makes me feel anything is the new set of books i'm reading, i am really enjoying them, now i have the attention span to read them.

[Laelle]

Usually for me it happens around PMS time and my behavior is quiet. When asked to feel, I cant, I feel like im being fake by trying. Sometimes it turns self destructive and i burn every bridge around me so im not asked to feel anymore. Everyone is gone and its quiet.

Then when it eases up, I look around me, and im alone. And then I go about building back the bridges that are repairable and letting go of the ones that are too damaged to be repaired.

For me during this time its best to be alone and do those little things that I enjoy and just be comfortable with the silence that the alone time gives me.
Its ok to be quiet, its ok to be within yourself...and not exactly the best time to make friends anyway

[Merlin]

I know that I have achieved recovery complete with a range of emotion both enjoyable and not. I couldn't accept a stability without that. I'd rather be cycling.