[~Christina]

OK so Last weekend my husband and I met a friend of his In Chattanooga ... Since its only 2.5 hours away we got there on friday nite .. Stayed up later than i normally do but OK i can handle this ,, SO we are up early early off to the Aquirium its huge and beautiful ,, then off to Rock City which is something i think is one of the most beautilful places in the world .,, but its full of walking and steps ( both places) back to the hotel we go .. KNOWING its late and all the physical stuff i did was going to irritate my Fibromyalgia all to hell .. Because we had more things to do the next day I actually took less sleep meds than i normally do so i can be " alert" well morning rolls around im so totally out of it and in such unbelievable pain and mentally i wasnt able to speak with out slurring like i was stoned or drunk could barely walk to the car with my husbands help ... so happy we were on the 2nd floor and no elevator ( grrrrr) ,,

Well 2 weeks before this my husband FINALLY got that i have bipolar and im not just being lazy and when you combine bipolar and a chronic pain ( fibromyaglia ) its never alot of fun for me or those around me ,, Sunday when i was so out of it my husband was really really upset and thinking i had taken too many meds .. He didnt really really yell he was just pissed ,, All along i kept saying ill be fine i just need to get some coffee i was actually slapping myself across the face ,... he wasnt happy at all with me ,, we got in the car he called the people we were going to see and i could tell he was pissed i just rolled away from him and cried ... i dont remember anything about the drive home ,, i got home and just went to bed . much later that nite when i got up he apologized so many times for getting upset ...

I know its going to take time for him to really understand the ups and downs of bipolar and on top of it the chronic pain i have plus if i over do things like i did saturday I KNEW i was going to be a mess ...

Becaue of the pain and the initial reaction of my husband of course im now lower than low and have ZERO motivation to do ANYTHING .. im hurting sooo bad i just want to scream .. I do see My T today thank god ,,but then he will be out of town for 3 weeks,,, im so freaking over that ,, him and i have a plan in place if i get into trouble i hope to god i dont need it .

Things are ok again between my husband and I .. I cant really blame him for assuming i overtook my meds because of my pain i have done it a few times in the past ,, i took them not as a suicidal issue just took 2 lortabs instead of 1 and 2 muscle relaxers .. the pain is still horrible ... pain meds just really dont work for Fibro pain and i have tried all the rest made for fibro ,, none of them helped .

I just hate not knowing how im going to feel " mental wize" and I also have the never knowing when my normal pain level of a 7 or 8 with my fibro will throw me into a 9 or a 10


Thanks everyone for reading my rant !

[astone131]

I also have bipolar and fibromyalgia. Have you tried Lyrica for your fibro? I take 200 mg 2x a day. It really helps me. My mom takes nuerontin for her fibro. Have you tried that?

[~Christina]

Hey Astone ,,Im Soooooo sorry you also suffer from Fibromyalgia ... I have tried every medication on this planet for Fibro.. Nothing really gave me any substantional pain relief so I stopped using it all .. I may take a couple loratabs or Somas a week. maybe 3-4 Neurontin a week My Pain level is always at a 7 .. I hold off on taking medications until my pain hits a 9 or above . I have tried every combo of medications , yoga , diet etc that you can imagine .. I have just given up on getting any real relief from my pain ..I just try to roll with the punches .. most days i can handle but when i over do things i pay a huge price ,,then you add Bi polar on top ,,, well its a sucky mess ...

Im glad Lyrica gives you some relief

[kindachaotic]

So sorry you are having such a hard time! Can understand the husband thing, he has gotten frustrated that he can't "fix" me & make things better.
He handles the bipolar issues better than my physical ailments, fibro, rheumatoid arthritis & couple other autoimmune disorders.
If I over do it, am in bed for days, sometimes get these weird sore throats.
Fortunately Neurontin has really helped me.
Really feel for you that nothing eases your pain, but do know you're not alone.
Wish I could be more help with advice & such.

[mokie]

morethingswrong, So sorry you are not doing well. I hope you get to feeling well. It will take time and patience for you and your husband to get to the point of both of you understanding where you are at in both BP and Fibro. I know it is hard but it can be done. Just keep in mind that he has taking the step to finally understand that it is the BP and not you being lazy or what not.

[~Christina]

thanks everyone !

I wish i could sit here and type alot but i over did it today ( duh me !! ) so im feeling it alrleady so tomorrow ought to be a freaking joy :/

Wishing everyone some Peace hugs and love