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Oh, I see about not wanting to fight the fight, I get it now. Regarding the meds, I hope you get on some kind of mood stabilizer to help you.

My wife ran for most of her life, living in dozens of places and going from job to job on a monthly basis. Today, it is the stability of a husband, kids, home, career, dog, and way too many cats that anchors her and gives her purpose. Some would call it routine. She calls it a life preserver. We have our setbacks, but she is in control much more than she is out.

The experience of having a spouse use you and your manic state to find sex partners outside marriage is one I have read about before. Having an MI does not mean you have to be abused or taken advantage of! Ask yourself if you are better off with him or without him. If the answer is without, find a therapist to give you the strength to leave. And dont' just walk away homeless; an attorney will help you take what is rightfully yours with you. You deserve that much!

I spent a few years running from apartment to apartment and job to job. I had no idea I had bipolar. After my diagnosis I have had strong urges to run now and then, but I have kids,a husband, a house and pets. When I am feeling really mixed I feel held back by those obligations and the urge to run is stronger. When I am depressed running is just a thought, and when I am manic, I want to run to somewhere (like a communal living situation) with my family and start a new life with no problems.
So basically it is always in the back of my mind and for me it is about impulse control. I have my past as evidence that I could do it and pull it off (we even have moved a couple of times with the kids). So I have to control the impulse to tell myself that it would be easy. For me that's the disease talking.

As far as comparing bipolar to cancer, I have no problem with that analogy. It is not that we aren't fighting our butts off, it's that the disease attacks the part of our brain that is responsible for the will to fight. I am not saying that it is an excuse not to fight, but we need to know that we don't have to compare our fight to another person's fight. We fight when we can and sit back when we have to.

Ok, so that is the end of my "novel" here.

Wow!Thanks, I have tried to think about it, but right now, I can't think about it for more then 5min.. I am really really hoping new meds will give me some peace, so I can process my thoughts that are hard to deal with.
Thank you so much, I needed this!

Thanks, it has been a great read!Thanks for your help!

I'd like to do an "Into the Wild" If you've ever seen the movie or read the book, you'll know what i mean

I'll have to check that out, something like living off the wilderness? My grandfather did that, he was very strange, and also rich. He was MI, just not sure exactly what was going on there.