[Hydrophobic1212]

So we're taking me off of Abilify - Doctor's orders - and already I'm getting my paranoia and hallucinations back. Today it was just terrible and it was the same way yesterday. My moods have been so sporadic too, I just spent a minute crying and now I'm all cheery again.

It's been terrible at school today too, I dont' know how I managed to get through the day. I was supposed to talk with the guidance counselor (my go to person) but she never came to get me like she was supposed to.

Today's just been a terrible day.

So I had to call into work which is something my mother is NOT happy about. She gets upset whenever I call in, even if I really need the day off. My boss is completely understanding and he knows I have a mental illness so things are all good there.

Any suggestions on how to deal with this situation? I've tried to calmly talk to her about it but it doesn't work. Should I just let it go, do you think?

And any help with dealing with the paranoia/hallucinations and moods, especially while in school? Such as tips of what you usually do to deal with them?

Any help would be much appreciated!

[Moose72]

Some people just think you shouldn't ever call in - no matter what. I've been there.

[Secretum]

((Hydrophobic)) Mental illness is not easy to deal with regardless, but it's especially nasty when it strikes at an early age. Most people just have to get through work, but you somehow have to survive high school, including all the confusing and stressful social factors, on top of work. The fact that you are able to push through most of the time is impressive.

Why did you have to stop taking abilify? Is your pdoc going to put you on another antipsychotic? If you don't have an appointment soon, you should call him and let him know what is going on. You want to get this under control so before it becomes an emergency. And I suppose it would also be nice to be able to live your life.

It's exceedingly cliché, but your mother just wants what is best for you. Sometimes when we are sick, we cut ourselves too much slack. Yesterday, for instance, I was really down. I didn't even try to study for the major exam I have tomorrow. I did nothing the entire day but sleep and surf the internet. Was I truly incapable of getting anything done? It sure felt like it. But if I tried, I might just have been pleasantly surprised. If I give myself a break from life every time I feel like I need one, my life will quickly spiral outside of my control. Bipolar, rather than Secretum, will determine how Secretum lives her life, and I really do not want that. Your mom probably fears a similar future for you, and wants to make sure that you still can live the life you desire despite your illness.

[Hydrophobic1212]

Originally Posted by Secretum

((Hydrophobic)) Mental illness is not easy to deal with regardless, but it's especially nasty when it strikes at an early age. Most people just have to get through work, but you somehow have to survive high school, including all the confusing and stressful social factors, on top of work. The fact that you are able to push through most of the time is impressive.

Why did you have to stop taking abilify? Is your pdoc going to put you on another antipsychotic? If you don't have an appointment soon, you should call him and let him know what is going on. You want to get this under control so before it becomes an emergency. And I suppose it would also be nice to be able to live your life.

It's exceedingly cliché, but your mother just wants what is best for you. Sometimes when we are sick, we cut ourselves too much slack. Yesterday, for instance, I was really down. I didn't even try to study for the major exam I have tomorrow. I did nothing the entire day but sleep and surf the internet. Was I truly incapable of getting anything done? It sure felt like it. But if I tried, I might just have been pleasantly surprised. If I give myself a break from life every time I feel like I need one, my life will quickly spiral outside of my control. Bipolar, rather than Secretum, will determine how Secretum lives her life, and I really do not want that. Your mom probably fears a similar future for you, and wants to make sure that you still can live the life you desire despite your illness.

Thanks! That helps and makes me feel better.

Yeah, I've been dealing with mental illness since I was a little kid. It's definitely hard to deal with through high school.

I stopped Abilify because of the side effects it was having on me. They weren't positive ones, and I have an appointment with him this week so we'll get it straightened out then. He knows what's going on, so hopefully this will get fixed soon.

That's an interesting theory as to why she feels that way.... Thanks for sharing.

And thanks again for your help.