[stan0212]

I'm starting to have some experience which I find strange and disturbing
(which I had some months ago).

I would be walking around or sitting and talking with a friend in my head (ie. not aloud) as if she's right in front of me (she's obviously not) and then I'll change topic and then this will go on for the whole day. It's like a running commentary in my head.

Sometimes it's related, other times it is not. My thoughts are not racing
though, it's the speed of a normal conversation, the wierd part I find
is that I think of what I say as if this friend is right in front of me.

As far as I understand, "flight of ideas" is thoughts changing topics but just you thinking to yourself and not as though you are talking to a friend who is not there with you.

Sorry if I seem to be repeating myself but I find it a bit hard to articulate
what I am experiencing.

My pdoc put me on haloperidol which helped but the side-effects bother
me very much (ie. my whole body will jerk suddenly when I am not moving,
eg. at my desk resting my head on the table to take a break) so I went
off it. btw, I'm also on seroquel which is supposed to help too.

[pachyderm]

Don't we all talk to people in our heads? I mean, how would we think, otherwise? Our minds remember people that we actually met, and impressions of them are stored in our heads. Sometimes these impressions get split off and become almost separate "people" or we think they are. I suppose that can get problematic, but I'd be leery of any "treatment" that wants to totally shut off this process.

[Detach]

Do you know the saying... "It's ok to talk to yourself, as long as your not answering yourself". Now it's just a saying....but when I was manic not only did I talk to myself (in my head), but I was clearly answering myself also, as if I was two people, which was different then the stream of thought one can have where answers appear. Like you I have a hard time articulating what I'm saying. But, it was definitely not my norm and has stopped now that I'm no longer manic.

Oh, and I don't think it's flight of ideas, but I don't know this 100%

Doesn't sound like flight of ideas, which I hope sets your mind at ease. As I understand and have experienced them, they are rapid fire and often disconnected. About 10 seconds later, I can't remember the previous thought, though it was "brillant" at the time.

I agree with pachyderm... a lot, if not all, people have conversations in their head. It can be a way to figure out how you feel about something so you are more prepared to articulate it.

Don't know if this is the case for you, but I think (and seem to recall reading) that introverts tend to do this more often due to the need for alone time to re-charge, process and even rehearse. Conversations are on-the-spot events. I (introvert) needed to learn to defer answering, (even if only for a short time) so as not to agree to things I didn't even want to do(!) if they had even been given even the slightest time for reflection. But mostly I need to prepare for the different ways a conversation might go. Hope that's not too off-track.

Long/short: I wouldn't worry about it.

[Beholden]

This is interesting to me as well, though I haven't had this issue, I sometimes think about some conversations and have to replay it in my head (not out loud) with things I wish I'd said!

Or if I'm about to have a talk with someone about something serious, "I need to prepare for the different ways a conversation might go" just to be prepared.

[stan0212]

Thanks for your replies. It helps to know others' experiences and viewpoints.

I would say mine is not a conversation, but a monologue, coz I'm
just talking non-stop. I haven't lost insight yet, otherwise I would
be talking into thin air and that's definitely something wrong there.

I've seen people talking aloud into thin air before. Others will
conclude they are crazy.

[Moose72]

There's a difference between taking to yourself in your head or out loud as in rehearsing the way a conversation went or could've gone or might go and actually talking to someone who isn't really there. Flight of ideas, as I understand it, means being hypomanic or manic and having thought after thought after thought but you can't finish one before the next one comes. Talking a million miles a second, for example.

[espritlibre]

Originally Posted by stan0212

I'm starting to have some experience which I find strange and disturbing
(which I had some months ago).

I would be walking around or sitting and talking with a friend in my head (ie. not aloud) as if she's right in front of me (she's obviously not) and then I'll change topic and then this will go on for the whole day. It's like a running commentary in my head.

Sometimes it's related, other times it is not. My thoughts are not racing
though, it's the speed of a normal conversation, the wierd part I find
is that I think of what I say as if this friend is right in front of me.

As far as I understand, "flight of ideas" is thoughts changing topics but just you thinking to yourself and not as though you are talking to a friend who is not there with you.

Sorry if I seem to be repeating myself but I find it a bit hard to articulate
what I am experiencing.

My pdoc put me on haloperidol which helped but the side-effects bother
me very much (ie. my whole body will jerk suddenly when I am not moving,
eg. at my desk resting my head on the table to take a break) so I went
off it. btw, I'm also on seroquel which is supposed to help too.

I do this all the time. As soon as there isn't anything else to distract me (eg a real conversation) I'll switch to having a conversation with a friend in my head instead. And it goes on for what seems like forever. I forget that I'm even doing it, I'm so used to it.

[Ryask]

i talk to myself out loud when i am doing something, concentrating or trying to think something through carefully however, i will look at some in the room while i do it. I guess i feel it is less crazy that way because i can pretend i was talking to them instead.

[widgets]

I relate to this alot, I will talk to myself an answer myself and the two sides of the conversation will have very different ideas.
While I'm going about my day I have someone talking in my head, not a physical voice but something I can't control, and it changes depending on my mood.
Some times its 'why are you bothering you'll fail?'
Other times it's 'wow we're amazing,'
I believe there is 2 people inside of me, I think of myself in terms of we, us etc, I think I'm a living version of Jekyll and Hyde.

[Trippin2.0]

I also think of myself in the plural sense...

[happiedasiy]

No,
You have an analitical mind
You have an emotional mind
You have a primitive brain
you have an evolved brain
They all talk to one another
Those who can hear the conversation and have
the ability to converse are gifted.
How you respond or react is of your own
free will.

[roads]

Originally Posted by widgets

I believe there is 2 people inside of me, I think of myself in terms of we, us etc, I think I'm a living version of Jekyll and Hyde.

Do you mean like a split personality? Or multiple p's? Or something else, literally 2 physically separate beings?

Jekyll/Hyde the literary creation was just a fairly simply expression of a human's ability to do evil one moment and good the next. It's a perplexing thing, this swinging from one to the other without either seeming able to dominate. I wonder what the pdoc & tdoc would diagnose?

How do you handle feeling the way you do? Anything happen to bring this about?