I don't know what name or label you would put how I'm feeling. The best one I can think of is irrational. I feel depressed but sometimes I can manage to do a few things around the house. I feel really sensative,the littlest thing can set off the bad things in my head and it takes a long time to get rid of them. I feel needy. The days are going so slow. I'm hostile. I'm sad. Sometimes for a few moments I am great and it feels like I can do anything.I want to sleep all the time. It's just not good. Halloween is my favorite holiday but I'm barely into it this year.

My pdoc just changed my meds around a few weeks ago and I see him again on the 3rd but when it comes to telling him how I'm feeling (or anyone in person for that matter) I can never find the words.

I don't know why I posted this, I guess I just wanted someone to know how I'm feeling and see if anyone else did too.

[Charlie_J]

You just described me!

I woke up early, went to work and was on top of the world when I came back, despite the fact that I clean toilets. I went to get an extra hour in bed and woke up as the complete opposite. I went back to bed (again) but the switch obviously doesn't work the other way. Another depressed day.

Developed paranoia towards the late afternoon.

So... you're not alone

You could show your doc what you wrote in your post. I think it's extremely eloquent.

[roads]

Charlie's idea of showing your pdoc your post sounds like a very good one to me. She was right, Joanna: It's a very well written description of your emotional "place" & I think would be a great help.

Take care. Things can get better. Hang on, keep coming back.