My mood seems ok, but last night and today I have been having psychosis. I keep hearing people in my house upstairs which is freaking me out. Before the noises upstairs started I got the idea that I "need" to build a cage for my neck and chest out of metal rods for protection. I keep hearing my phone ring. Knocks on doors ect. However I am not manic nor depressed. It's Halloween so I'm am getting doubly freaked out by this. I am not going to build a cage. I'll try to resist that.

I missed all of you while I was gone. I hope you all are ok and giant hugs to those of you who need them.

[alwaysrejoice]

hello! I having a similar problem. Im having crazy anxiety and I am scared to open closet doors and I think someone is going to run up behind me and attack! It being Halloween does not help, good point. Hope you feel better soon.

[BNLsMOM]

It sounds scary Anika, but you know it for what it is. Taking a trip can throw us off a lot. Last time I came home from a trip I went into the hospital within a few days.

I don't know if I just try to tune it out if I can or be on alert for an episode in the making. Ugh I just got stable.

[~Christina]

Anika (((((hugs)))))

I so understand what your going thru as im dealing with it also ... Just remember and focus on the fact its not real.

I think you are a wonderful person ,, here you are going thru a mess ,,yet you post on peoples threads with such love and compassion !!!!!

I love this site ! everyone is sooooo supportive

((( hugs))) for you !

Wishing you Peace and Love ~

[mgran]

I always get this with trips, even fairly minor ones... and I do find that Halloween always sets me off very badly. I don't know whether it's the superstitions surrounding this time of year, or if there really is something in the air (actually, I'm pretty sure that's part of it, and I can feel it creeping up a few days in advance) but I do get very stressed on this night.

Which when you think of it is sad, because it started off as a Christian celebration of light and life to honour one's ancestors. What happened to apple bobbing!

Anyway, I really hope you're feeling better soon.

[alwaysrejoice]

Intresting so many of you mentioning having problems after a trip... I ended up in the hospital about a week after my trip to las vegas.

Things seemed to have eased off this evening, however I still feel a strong urge that I need to make the cage. My mood still seems ok. But I am very very tired. I'll are how things go tonight and tomorrow. I really don't want to up the antipsychotics again.

[BlackPup]

Can you call your pdoc???
maybe get some advice from them?
hope you get back to normal soon....

[kindachaotic]

Anika So good to see you back on here, your sweet spirit was really missed!
Really sorry you have had such a rough day. Glad tonight has been some better.
It is so sad that one can't take a short holiday without paying the price. One thing to be tired in general but add on the stress of having to repeatly tell yourself, this isn't real, this isn't real, just exhausting!!!

Hope your weekend was good & that you are back with us.