Destabilized (but not depressed)!

Saturday I had a "spiritual" experience. I was carrying my laundry down to the machines and listening to the steady rhythm of the steps of my feet. Suddenly, I felt taken away from this world, above it in a sense. I was overwhelmed with the sensation that things would all be alright, that everything important that I had been worrying about would work out. Then, I started talking to myself (in my head), saying things like "these are the feet that are going to take me to med school", "these are the feet that are going to revolutionize psychiatry", "these are the feet that are going to work for a purpose way above she who owns them". It was very intense, and I only had had one experience like in before. It wasn't really related to hypomania, though the euphoria (in an weakened form) and sense of grandiosity were there. Hypomania is a disorganized and distracted state. My mind was quite focused during this. This lasted all of ten minutes.

Yesterday, I was all over the board mood-wise. I felt like how I did before entering this fall depression and before starting tegretol. Down and up, down and up, and throw in some intense anger (bordering on rage!) to ice the cake. I ended the day feeling hypomanic.

And that's where I remain! I really don't have any complaints, as (for me at least) it feels 1000x better than the depression. But I suppose it is an example of bupropion destabilizing a bipolar person, and rather fast. I don't know how extreme the hypo state will get. So far I haven't been any higher than I have been in the past, unmedicated.

I've been encouraged to think a bit about triggers lately, and the highest manias I have had started with this kind of thinking. Sudden clarity of thought involving some kind of mission. They start innocuously enough, but they're hooks that catch at my brain. Next time, I'm going to try not taking the bait, if I can.

I'm not saying this is happening to you, but it's my experience. So... take care. I'm really glad you are feeling better, though.