This is turning out to be a bad bad time. I'm so depressed and with reason. I feel as tho lately I'm here for everyone else and no one is here for me (irl). Not lately anyways, I know everyone is stressed and tired or sick. I am also sick, tired and stressed but it feels like everyone elses needs trump my own at the moment.

I feel like just throwing up my hands and saying I quit. I'm quite hurt that in my time of need everyone else is so wrapped up in their own stuff that they can't even spare a few minutes. I spare tons of minutes constantly for who ever may need them. life just completely sucks some times, unfortunately that time is now. I'm sick and tired of having to beg for needs to be met. I do not feel important, and more I do not feel loved. I feel alone while everyone makes sure I fill their needs. I guess I feel used.

I definatly haz a sad

[nacht]

I'm so sorry, Anika. That is never a fun feeling to have. My present to you is all the hugs.

and lots of to you Anika! Sorry to not be able to be there IRL, 'cause I've got lots of minutes!

[Trippin2.0]

I've got tons of minutes for you!! If I could show up at your house, and give them to you, I would! Sorry that you're struggling... XOXO

[roads]

Originally Posted by Anika

I definatly haz a sad

You & your sad are invited to my cave. The fireplace is going & there's a pot of split pea soup on. Cornbread's baking in the fireplace oven--can you smell it? Massage therapist will be over soon, & you're first on the table.

How does that sound?

Roadrunner

[~Christina]

(((((( Anika )))))) Good grief ! Im so sorry your not getting support that you need and deserve!!!!!!!!
Maybe just take a step back and do something just for yourself to hell with everyone else for a litttle while .. Im glad you posted it here... hopefully it helped to get it out and vent.

And... absolutly head to Roadrunners cave is sounds heavenly

Thank you guys. So much !!!!!
You are all always so sweet and kind to me. I wish I had you all in real life. My bf is always telling me I need friends. Well... I do have friends, of the very best kind, right here.

Roadrunner, you always come up with the most fabulous ideas, I am sooo there. . That sounds like the perfect way to spend the holidays. I'll be visualizing while I have a soak in the tub. If course tho I would insist you go first an you would insist I go first and we might never get to the actual massage. Haha.

I wish you all a blessed holiday. I will certainly be with you all in mind, since I cannot be in body.

[Resident Bipolar]

We're all here for you, at any time, albeit on the internet. It's hard to remember at times that we are actually human beings sitting somewhere in the world making these posts...I think that remembering there's a human being somewhere in the world that genuinely cares about you and wants you to be happy sometimes helps.

I get the feeling though, I know it all too well. However hard it may be to believe though...the people you know IRL DO care about you. But we're only human beings, not all of us know how to be supportive and, like me, sometimes feel inadequate and unable to cheer a friend up.

Have a nice Christmas with your boyfriend. Sending you lots of hugs!
RB ♥

Ok I'm over it. Im starting to feel a bit better. Cried a lot last night but this morning I was too busy to feel anything. Just got my turkey in the brine and everything else under control. I can finally put my feet up for an hour or so before the crazieness begins.

I hope you all are doing ok tonight. I'm thinking of you all and and wish you all as peaceful Christmas as can be.