[DaveyJones]

I had kind of an epiphany this evening...

As you know I'm down to my last few bucks, no job and have to find a place to live soon. My phone is history, my old truck gets about 10 mph...you get the picture. As a result, I've been really pitiful all week.

Tonight I went to bed about 6 pm...i'm not sure why, I guess to continue to hide. I had not been in bed for 5 minutes when the doorbell rang...I knew by the ring who is was, my 9 year old and my ex. (We have a joke where we ring the bell continuously until the other comes to the door). Well, we had a big, teary scene...my young'un was extremely worried. It kind of gave me a boot in the butt that I've been needing the past few weeks.

So, I ain't giving up...this bipolar s__t ain't gonna beat me. The stupid junk in my head is not going to win. I'm too good, too strong, and I am going to be stronger when it is over! And I'm counting on you guys to help...the next time you see me being pitiful, I am begging you to give me a swift kick...(don't look so excited, pat! ).

To close, thanks to everyone at PC for the love and support you have shown me. I could never repay what you have done.

Peace out,
DJ

[SweetSunshine]

Go Davey Go Davey Put your thing on its your Birthday! Hehhehehe Love ya !! And I am so proud of you for the get up and go you got goin on now!

OMG why does this remind me of you ? Did I see a picture of you somewhere with a mullet? lol

Take care Davey and Good Luck! I'll be here for ya Hiney!

Hugz~
Bethy

[Azalysa]

<font color="red">WHOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!</font> How wonderful to have those epiphanies or what I've heard called "divine appointments"!!! I've experienced the energy and relief those give and your's came in the nick of time, sounds like.

I'm rooting for ya {{{{DJ}}}}!!!

Ummmmm, I really don't like butt-kicking - would it be ok if I just hit you over the head with a pillow??

P.S. I just re-read your post and you said "swift kick" not "butt kick". It's not me, it's the short-term memory loss! *nods*

[hillbunnyb]

OOOOOOOOOOh YYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEaaaaaaaaaa

[darkeyes]

I am happy for you, children have a special, unspoken, magic, they can really inspire us. I know, I have a 19yo son. I am wishing you well and continued good thoughts.
I have confidence you can get through this, just hang in there, keep the thought of your child as a personal mantra.

(((((((((((( DJ )))))))))))))))

Roe

[theenemywithin]

You have the motivation, a light to hold onto. Now, remember you are always doing your BEST.

[BlueFaith]

((((((((((DJ))))))))))))
There have been times when you helped me get up again after being knocked down (even though you may not even know it). I am so happy for you! I really, truly am! You're a wonderful person.... and I love saying the word "hiney" now! Heh heh heh. You keep on keepin' on! I'll give ya a swift kick whenever you need it!!

Hugs and Mo' Hugs,
Jenn

[DaveyJones]

thanks, Jenn,

You make me smile! It's good to have you back!

Hiney,
DJ

PS. Love the pics--you're a goddess (sigh). D

[SweetSunshine]

I'm speechless lol

[BlueFaith]

Awwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!! I'm a goddess!! heh heh Thank you so very much (((DJ)))



Hugs and Mo' Hugs, Jenn (the goddess). LOL I think I like that wayyyyyy too much! LMFAO

here i go. thiskeyboard is giving me fits..........in austin.

so, dj, it hit you, huh? i know what scared you.......tht it is only five hours fromm my front door to yours. remember that? i am so glad that you're doing better.........glad your family cares. as your family here does.

i'm doing great here. job hunting and playing with grandson.
xoxoxo pat

[DaveyJones]

Ooh, Pat's in Austin...I'm jealous. I did a bunch of stuff last week, got my vocational rehab set up, went to my new pdoc...this week I'm kind of sittin' around waiting. I really don't know what to do. I hope I can get out and look for jobs soon. I just sat around here all day didn't do much except fix some red beans and rice and read radical left-wing propaganda websites...a good day, now that I think about it!

DJ

[nothemama8]

DJ glad your doing better,as you see the ppl here do worry about each other and in most part REALLY care,
I on the other hand am at the point of no return, still doing fair but not giving support but not getting the support given (feeling used) again glad your doin better, ignore my rant

[DaveyJones]

It's a kind of ebb and flow, isn't it? If you want to chat nothemama, you can always PM me...I'm happy to listen!

DJ

DJ, this town truly fits me. i am having a ball. glad you're doing so well. see..................................i told you so!

when you least expect it, five hours from my door to yours! i have more free time now and mastered the drive to austin and back. world, watch out!!! xoxox pat

[DaveyJones]

Ooh, surprises await! World, lookout....Pat's on the loose!

DJ

i get the key to the ranch refuge house tomorrow. anyone want to come count elk, deer, camels, llamas, horses or donkeys, huh? huh? huh? DJ?

[DaveyJones]

How high do I have to count?

you can use your fingers and thumbs and toes. that oughta do it on the donkeys. don't know how many camels, etc there are out there. i get keys today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(((((((((((((((DJ)))))))))))))))

How are you doing?

[DaveyJones]

Well, let's see...

I feel pretty good...I'm almost done with Effexor and ramping up Lamictal. My mood seems pretty stable, so I'm happy about that.

I start a Vocational Rehabilitation evaluation program that will take a week or two, mornings mainly. I'm hoping to get to go to a woodworking school in St. Louis...I know they send people there, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

I have to be out of this house by Friday...looking for a place to live. I seem to be having trouble finding one that takes unemployed mental cases with no money...but I'm sure something will turn up. I do have some people helping, like my pastor, and a person who is very tied in at the various agencies, so I'm not hopeless (or am I? lol).

So, that's pretty much the story from Springfield, Misery...I'm doing OK. Yeah, I've got a lot on my plate, but I really feel fundamentally better. All I need now is to unlearn a few bad habits and a couple of decent breaks!

DJ

I'm not good with geography and I'm not from USA. If you are accepted for the woodworking, does that mean you will be moving or is it close enough for you to travel if you stay in Springfield? Will they help you do the move and find you a place to stay in St.Louis?

I'm glad you are feeling better and I sure hope you will find a nice place to stay.

(((((((((((((DJ))))))))))))))

[DaveyJones]

Hi, T-O,

St. Louis is about 180 miles from Springfield, so I would have to move for a few months...We'll just have to see how things work out. I would really like to go, they seem to have a fairly unusual program...it really focuses on the skills required to make a living as a craftsman, rather than teaching one how to run machines in a cabinet shop like the trade schools...but I'll do that if I need to for one reason or another. We'll just have to see how it goes, I guess. I mean, when you get down to it, I'm not positive that I'm able to hold a job anymore, so we'll just have to see. I'm gonna work as hard as I can.

Thank you for checking on me, by the way...that's really nice.

DJ