[xp1155]

OK, so I've been depressed for months because of my Trileptal and I started 30mg Cymbalta. Well, the 30mg gave me bursts of energy on and off. The p-doc gave me 60mg and I started that Sunday. I had been trying to force myself to do things without much luck.

Well, yesterday, I had a small burst of energy right before I went in to teach. It lasted for about 3 hours, then I crashed again. Today has been mostly unproductive, but I had about a 40-50 minute feeling of normalcy so I vacuumed. I have a lot to do, but I am not feeling as if I can do any of it again. The bursts of energy (especially yesterday) gave me hope, but now I am feeling hopeless again.

I am half tempted to take myself off Trileptal. My p-doc is out of the office until the end of next month and I can't keep going like this. I feel barley able to function as of late. I can't check myself into a hospital because (a) I am not sui, (b) I couldn't do my work there if I do get a burst of energy, and (c) I am terrified of such a thing (not to mention I don't have the money to pay for it).

I suppose I could call the clinic at the school and ask to speak to a nurse or something. Maybe I could at least get the med changed. I have stayed on Trileptal since November and my p-doc insisted I try it for more than a month. It's been two months and, yes, it takes care of the mania; but the mania isn't a problem to me!!! Yet, I already called last week, so I don't want to be a bother.

Sorry, I feel like I am whining; but I honestly don't know how I am going to make it through this semester as far as functioning.

[dragonfly2]

Do the bursts of energy feel suspiciously like cycling? SNRIs are known for inducing cycling, so I would watch those bursts of energy very closely if I were you. The last thing I'd think about right now is going off the mood stabilizer. It may be doing more than you realize and coming off it now while taking the Cymbalta could send you flying.

Does your pdoc have someone else in the office covering for them? The end of February is a long time to wait to make adjustments. I don't think you're whining. You sound like you're in a lot of distress and have a right to feel well.

I'd try calling your pdoc's office again. You're not bothering them. That's why they're there.

[xp1155]

I have rapid cycles and mixed episodes. However, the rapid cycles have mostly stopped since the Trileptal- the problem is it has thrown me into a depression.

I think I will call tomorrow. No one that I know of is covering for her.

I didn't get out of bed most of the day except to vacuum earlier and I made myself some pasta about an hour ago. I am back in bed now with my laptop. I feel so useless. A friend wants to hang out tonight and I don't know if I can. I already cancelled on her on Monday.

[Resident Bipolar]

Rapid Cycling is horrible...I can cycle three or four times in one day at worse.



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