[Rosie23]

I am now angry. I called my doctor about the effects of the generic for Lamictal and I was blown off. I was told to wait until my appointment next Friday.
Everything is getting worse. The depression, thoughts about death, anxiety, startle response and now paranoia. I was scared to death all last night that someone was going to come in my house and get me.
I know it is the drug doing it, but it doesn't make it any easier to endure.

Why is it always like that for me. I reach out and tell someone and I always get blown off. Suck it up. Deal with it. Why can't anyone listen and believe me when I say how bad things are.

And it has never mattered what it was. I was 7 years old and had to suck up the sexual abuse. I was 12 years old and had to suck up my mom's being suicidal. Suck up 3 armed robberies and suck up my abusive ex. Suck up my second's husband's disability and death from cancer.

Nobody gets how hard it is to be me. Especially when I am in a major depressive state. I have tried so many times to reach out to people and I get told I am overreacting or being stupid. So I quit trying and I suffer in silence.

Give me my wild eyed mania any day. It's way better than this.

[Trippin2.0]

So sorry your cries are going unheard. I understand how hurtful and frustrating that can be.
I don't have any words of wisdom, sorry, just know that I am here for you.

[SunAngel]

Originally Posted by Rosie23

I am now angry. I called my doctor about the effects of the generic for Lamictal and I was blown off. I was told to wait until my appointment next Friday.
Everything is getting worse. The depression, thoughts about death, anxiety, startle response and now paranoia. I was scared to death all last night that someone was going to come in my house and get me.
I know it is the drug doing it, but it doesn't make it any easier to endure.

Why is it always like that for me. I reach out and tell someone and I always get blown off. Suck it up. Deal with it. Why can't anyone listen and believe me when I say how bad things are.

And it has never mattered what it was. I was 7 years old and had to suck up the sexual abuse. I was 12 years old and had to suck up my mom's being suicidal. Suck up 3 armed robberies and suck up my abusive ex. Suck up my second's husband's disability and death from cancer.

Nobody gets how hard it is to be me. Especially when I am in a major depressive state. I have tried so many times to reach out to people and I get told I am overreacting or being stupid. So I quit trying and I suffer in silence.

Give me my wild eyed mania any day. It's way better than this.

Rose, you have been through so much. I am so sorry you are being treated like less of a human being by everybody. It must really hurt and suck to be you. I am avaiilable if you would like to talk to someone. I never knew how much you have been through in your life.

As far as your doctors are concerned, dont give up on looking or someone who you will click with. It took me years, but I finally found someone who listens to me. Keep on keeping on with looking for a dr. who will listen to you.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO SUCK UP ANYTHING. LET ME KNOW IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO TALK. ((((GIGANTIC SQUISHY HUGS)))

[dragonfly2]

Can you call the pharmacy to see if there's anything they can do? Do you have any refills left of the old prescription? I'd seriously look into changing doctors. The last thing you need when you're in distress is to be blown off by the person you're supposed to be able to trust in this situation. His behavior is completely unacceptable.

Rosie23! It sucks to be blown off. Please keep posting as you can, so we can help as we might -- one thing's for sure, we'll never say suck it up! We've all felt the sting of such things and know how very unhelpful it is, so we are here for you in solidarity. How are you doing today?

[Rosie23]

Thanks Everyone!
I called the t-doc today and was adamant that they do something today. I had warned her when she handed me the starter kit that I was really sensitive to medication and I usually avoided it because I have the strangest reactions to them. Otc meds are the same, there are only a handful that I can take. (I would make a really bad drug addict. lol)

I was extremely lucky to hit the jackpot first try. That I needed her to write me another prescription for exactly what she had given me to try, right down to the manufacture. And I refused to take another dose of the prescription I have. I had become afraid to take it.

Not only did she give me the prescription, she gave me another starter kit just in case my insurance company won't fill another one. I am soo relieved.

I am going to take the prescription to my pharmacy now so I can be sure they have exactly what I need when it is time to fill it.

Thanks everyone, it is nice to know there are people in this world who understand. This can be a difficult disorder to treat. None of us need to have reactions to medications like this.

[tutitaylor]

Rosie23- So glad that things are looking up for you today. You did the right thing by insisting they do something. I hope that you have a more restful evening tonight.