[argv]

Hi. I'm zach.

I was diagnosed 2 months ago with bipolar, but 14 years ago was diagnosed with ADHD. I'm 35 now.

I'm taking Lamotragine(50mg) for a couple weeks then 100mg. And 300mg wellbutrin.

I've been taking welbutrin all along for 14 years (thinking I just had ADHD) and it was enough to keep my head above water, but that's about it. Some weeks I would sleep 14 hours and feel tired (and get up right before work and just go to work, is all I could manage) and some days I can sleep 1 or 2 hours and feel great the next day (and like I'm on speed!). Some days I can just drink 1 cup of coffee and be wired as hell, others I have to drink a pot of coffee just to stay awake.

So, I guess I'm bipolar. I was in denial about it, not realizing that it was abnormal. I thought it was just ADHD, or "just me being me" as I've always been like that, even as a kid. My psychiatrist lady said she had 'always suspected' I was bipolar and finally gave me a test to prove it.

anyways, just saying 'HI'.

[BuggsBunny]

HI, and welcome to the PC community! We give out lots of hugs around here, so I'll start you off with one to make you feel a little better about being bipolar. (really, it's not the end of the world, once you get medicated.) Hang in there until you come to terms with your diagnosis.

[SunAngel]

Welcome to PC. You will find a lot of support here.

Hi and welcome Argv,

PC is a great place for support, an BugsBunny is right, we hug more here than the yogis at my studio, and that's a lot! Sometimes it takes time to accept a dx, but remember that with the right dx comes right treatment and things can start getting better. Nice to have you here.


Anika

[nacht]

Hello and welcome!

[AniManiac]

Your story sounds almost exactly like mine! Even down to the same meds and ages for diagnosis. Funny how that works.

Welcome to PC! I'm sure you'll find a lot of good advice and support here.

[argv]

Thank you all. I'm gonna do some reading and stuff, but I'll probably reply to some posts and stuff.

So, a little about me.. I am 35, have played music in bands and recorded a few cd's, and am working currently on a new recording project of my own. I have an ever growing number of tattoos (sleeved arms). Uhm.. I have a ****** attitude, and I think people hate me, and I don't much care for them either. Always have been extremely moody, even when I was really young. My dad committed suicide when I was about 5, and he was extremely moody as well, so I wouldn't doubt he was bipolar.

My mom, as well, was extremely moody and has been diagnosed (from afar) as possible bipolar. She's also a major asshole that I have a hard time talking to.

and up to this point, life has been a blur.. mostly me doing crazy *****, and then winding up in the hospital ready to end it all. I got referred back to my clinic where they told me it was bipolar and not ADHD. I used to go off my meds alot because I thought it was only ADHD and I used to drink and do alot of drugs. I know I can't do that stuff anymore, which doesn't make me sad at all, I kinda hated doing the stuff anyways, but it was an escape I guess.

Ok, so that's more about me. I appreciate the hugs.

[nacht]

Ah, a fellow musician. I'm on the classical side of things though.

[argv]

I gotta say though, it's a huge relief to see people with the same problems I have! I kept wondering about the ADHD, as I read a bunch of books and tried to study it, but had little in common with the diagnosis, just never thought to look further, and never thought I was the big "bipolar". haha.

so, I appreciate you all being here. I left facebook because peoples' happy posts were just killing me. haha

ok, ttyl!

[argv]

Originally Posted by nacht

Ah, a fellow musician. I'm on the classical side of things though.

Well, I play doom metal, but am thinking I should get more into some jazz and stuff. I never really took lessons, so I got alot to learn (I typically play drums).

[nacht]

Originally Posted by argv

Well, I play doom metal, but am thinking I should get more into some jazz and stuff. I never really took lessons, so I got alot to learn (I typically play drums).

You're self-taught? That's pretty impressive. What other things do you play? I tried guitar but I only know a few chords, nothing to write home about.

The funny thing is that I'm a vocalist with a local symphony orchestra but my musical loves are basically industrial/EBM, aggrotech, and darkwave. I've been considering getting into it as a performer as well as a fan.

And... I'm rambling and derailing your thread! So I'll stop now.

[argv]

Originally Posted by nacht

You're self-taught? That's pretty impressive. What other things do you play? I tried guitar but I only know a few chords, nothing to write home about.

The funny thing is that I'm a vocalist with a local symphony orchestra but my musical loves are basically industrial/EBM, aggrotech (think Combichrist), and darkwave. I've been considering getting into it as a performer as well as a fan.

And... I'm rambling and derailing your thread! So I'll stop now.

Naw it's cool! I ramble myself.

Well, I'm not a GREAT drummer. I've been kinda tinkering around since I was 13, but I can make some pretty impressive beats. I tinker with guitar and bass as well. I do all the instruments myself in this recording project. And write the lyrics, which I need practice, but alot of my friends were wow'd by my first couple tries I guess.

I'll have to look up those bands, maybe tonight. I gotta go see the psychiatrist lady here in a few minutes, then go to work. Bleh.

I hope you decide to push your endeavors further! My new found diagnosis excites me in the fact that I can quit trying to act normal like I had been doing for the past few years, and just be me. Now I'm rambling. ok. I'm done.