[argv]

Today is one of my "oh, maybe this is all a dream.." kinda days where everything even looks weird, people are more like cartoons, and the shadows are watching me.

Thinking back to my childhood stirred up some crap or something, plus the fact that I'm working completely by myself with noone to really talk to at night for the last 3 days, starting to wonder if that's such a good idea, but I do like it. I like nice, quiet, creepy, big building.. turning off all the lights except the ones I need, and listening to the creaks and groans of the machine while I write lyrics.

But I felt a tad psychotic, like.. weird. I have lots of days like that though. On autopilot, and almost watching myself as I cruise through another night doing everything perfectly so as to not draw attention to myself. Hmmm..

[bluemountains]

I've been in that happy to be alone place. For me it is weird, but kind of nice. I like to go to restaurants or malls all alone and just sit and take in all that is around me but feel totally like I'm not there because no one acknowledges me. It is weird to watch yourself go through the motions.
Bluemountains

[argv]

Originally Posted by bluemountains

I've been in that happy to be alone place. For me it is weird, but kind of nice. I like to go to restaurants or malls all alone and just sit and take in all that is around me but feel totally like I'm not there because no one acknowledges me. It is weird to watch yourself go through the motions.
Bluemountains

It is. There's a part of me that really enjoys that feeling, kinda high, euphoric feeling. Almost worth putting up with the other crap for. I do enjoy my solitude, and always have. Part of the reason it's probably so hard for me to keep a girlfriend.. I like alot of alone time, and girls usually want to hang out a bunch. I guess that's besides the fact that I can't sleep for ****, and am kindof a prick sometimes.

[missmorganxo]

I've been feeling pyschotic for a while now. I see crap moving out of the corner of my eyes and can't sleep in the dark, and shadows always have stuff in them. Idk, it's more irritating than scary anymore. I just hate it, its especially bad at night. You're not alone! *hugs*