[grandmaof3]

Here it is 0230 and I'm still wide awake. I'm sitting here trying to think of a way to manipulate my husband into letting me buy a new car. Mania setting in. I don't need a new car..can't really afford one... but I just want one and have been obsessing over it for a few days. Got a ticket for wreckless driving yesterday..going 90 in a 45. I just couldn't help it. Now I don't even know if they'll let me keep my license but I just HAVE to have this new car. Good thing my name isn't on the bank account..I got my paycheck on friday and I've spent almost all of it. Mostly on toys and clothes for my grandson, clothes for my daughter and clothes for me. We didn't need any of it and I feel guilty but I still have this terrible urge to buy a new car.

[BlackPup]

this does not sound good... can you talk with your pdoc to give you something to help you sleep and something to take the edge off your mania. Try to be cautious....

[grandmaof3]

I'm on Geodon 320 mg, Abilify 5 mg, wellbutrin 450 mg, paxil 40 mg and I have Zyprexa 20 mg to take when I'm manic. It helps a little. I've tried ativan to help me sleep and that takes the edge off a little but no sleep. In the past I've tried ambien,lunesta, restoril and trazodone with no luck. I am seeing my pdoc in the morning, hoping he will come up with something. I've been having problems with mania the last 2 months. This is really getting old !

[BlackPup]

All the best for the morning... hope your pdoc can do something.
In the meantime, hope you can find something to do less destructive than spending money and driving fast!!!!
Can you try listening to some relaxing music?

[lad007]

You are not alone, I get obsessed with booking travel, and I can't get it off my mind until I do it. I obsessed on going to Vegas for two months and finally booked it last week, and then had a sigh of relief and slept, then guilt.
I try to ride it out, and distract but it doesn't work all that well as is obvious.
So I know about the urges and the guilt. If you find a cure, let me know!

[hamster-bamster]

Give your driver's license to your husband together with your keys. My PCP reported the fact that I was driving when manic (even though I was driving perfectly carefully without tickets, but she apparently decided that she would sleep more soundly knowing that I am off the road) to DMV; they revoked the license. It is extremely rare for bipolar, but still, afterwards, it took some time until a p-doc decided to certify me medically. I have the license back now (no car, but the license is valid) but the record of medical, mental or physical, revocation will stay forever. Most likely, it will ruin my life as employer would want to hire me with this record, even though it is otherwise perfectly clean - no accidents, no points. Having a good record is that important. Pay for the ticket ASAP and give the keys until you are stable. Can he drive you to work? Is there public transit to get to work while you are manic and reckless?

And, between the two troubles, by all means, spend (especially since you were so smart to limit your ability to spend) rather than drive 90 in 45. Save your life. Spending is a the lesser of two evils.

I really feel for you - with your number and dosages of antipsychotics, you are in your right to expect relief!